virago | rants

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one of the things that hurts me the most is when people try to make me feel guilty over things that i already feel bad about or shouldn't feel bad about

i'm a naturally guilty person. i tend to feel guilty for no reason and end up screwing up other things because people find it annoying that i constantly apologize over nothing

i'll be in tiny situations where it's something i shouldn't feel bad over, and people will go and do things to make me feel guilty when i truly tried my best to make the situation not however it was, but somehow i always end up apparently screwing up and end up not only 1. feeling guilty because i screwed it up 2. because the person is doing certain things to make me feel guilty

and it's not like i can't tell when someone is trying to make me feel bad, i'm able to pick up the signs or little things people will do to get me to feel that way, and even though i know what they're doing, i still feel bad

and the reason this hurts me so bad is because i know i didn't necessarily do anything wrong, but instead of making an attempt to talk it over with me, they'll do it in this childish way, which makes me insecure because what if they do this because they feel like they can't bring problems up with me ? and then i feel even worse

so in all: i hate when people make me feel guilty for no reason because it makes me feel like shit

hope you are happy & healthy & hydrated (please drink plenty of water it's important)

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