I walked around finally finding one of the bands performing. It was soft and pretty. I could listen to it all day, although it did make me upset seeing the couples sitting together on blankets. I'd get over it though. I thought about what Gavin would be doing. Would he worry? Probably not, considering Katelyn and Nikki would be on there knees for his attention.
I sat in the grass and stared up at the sky, thinking about what the clouds looked like. I saw a house, a plane, and even a face. The sun started to set, and it was about 9:00 ish. I'd been gone for about an hour. At least gone from Gavin and those two snobby girls. I hated myself for thinking I'd be his type, or even think I had a slight chance. I'd always be Lenora Andrews the childhood best friend with the toxic family.
All I wanted was a fun day with him and I. We'd be joking around over our favorite actor or actress. Maybe we could've gotten a milkshake, they were always his favorite desert. If only I were pretty enough, came from a wealthy family like he did. I wouldn't be so upset about Katelyn and Nikki flaunting over him.
I felt a tear roll down the side of my face. I let it stay because I couldn't care less, I have lost everything. I closed my eyes, and thought back to some of my favorite memories.
Once my younger brother, Gavin, and I all went to the park. We brought chalk and colored the sidewalks for hours. We did the whole neighborhood block. We were so proud of ourselves, of course we were crushed when it rained two days later.
I was interrupted by a security guard. He asked me to come with him. I didn't argue cause I wondered what I had done wrong and didn't want to be in more trouble. We walked to a help center, still I was confused of why I was asked to follow.
I realized when I saw Gavin as I walked through the door. He was pacing back and forth, hands on head. He looked panicked, then he noticed me. His eyes lit up like a child looking upon presents on Christmas. He rushed to me. He wrapped his arms around me.
He whispered in my ear "Don't ever do that to me again. You had me worried you know that? I was scared out of my mind when I couldn't find you."
I was motionless, frozen. I didn't know what to say. I thought maybe sorry or well you seemed content with those other girls so I left. But neither sounded appropriate. He was talking to the employees and then turned to me and walked up grabbing my hand and we left the building. He gripped my hand tightly.
All I could do was look down. The tears started crawling down my face. I was silent, not a sound when I cried. I didn't need him to worry, or to care but he does. I never need him to be there but he is. We left the park, now walking out to the car. I gripped his hand back, stopping in my tracks.
He stopped hesitantly, he looked back at me. He got very close to me, lifted my head and stared directly in my eyes. He wiped my tears.
"Why'd you leave? We were having fun weren't we?"
I looked at him. My voice, a little bit weak but I managed to give my answer.
"Katelyn, and Nikki... They threatened me while you were in the bathroom...They told me not to try anything with you... They were right, I had small feelings for you. But Katelyn was right I'd never have a chance with you. You had them and you'd have more fun with them, I though I'd be bothering you, so I-uh left."
I looked down really fast. I felt ashamed of how I felt. Maybe I was wrong for leaving and I could've sucked it up like a big girl and taken the pain. But I just left like the coward I am.
"I knew they said something, I could see it in you facial expression. I didn't expect that they-
"Katelyn she grabbed my arm. I was going to tell you, I was gonna tell you Gav. I lifted my sleeves, the bruises purple and some green. They would hit me Gav... It hurts so much. For along time, I never said anything cause I'm such a coward..." My voice faded and I looked up at him.
His face was pale, blank at most. Maybe I told him to soon, I just said it. I was being compulsive, it just happened. Then I tear rolled down his face.
"... Nora... oh my sweet Nora... why the hell didn't you tell me... How didn't I know... I failed at being the best friend... I'm- I am so sorry..." Gavin muttered quite disturbed by himself.
"No- Gavin it's not your fault. I lied about it, said it was nothing time and time again." I responded with.
"Lenora, I- shouldn't have invited them to join us at the festive. Because it should've been You and I, us. I should've thought, before I acted. I'm so useless- d*****." He was getting frustrated.
I acted, I hugged him. All I could think is, how could it be your fault. Gavin you couldn't stop it if you tried.
"Gavin. All you needed to do was be there. Be there for me, and you are. I shouldn't of left, I didn't mean to put you through that." I said trying to make him not blame himself.
"You know, I've always loved you. Lenora I-meant some of the stuff I said. The teasing and flirting jokes. I meant it, did I hide it well? My friends would tease me for it. I'd never-I wouldn't of hurt you on purpose. If I would've known those girls were hurting you-I ditched them to find you-they even tried to make me stay." He was rambling, but I let it happen.
"Wait...You what?" I asked my ears heard I love you my mind was confused.
"I uh-love you. Nora I've had the biggest crush on you since like middle school" he giggled "Man was it hard not having someone tell you, or me give it away." He said grinning.
My mind was a mess, and I couldn't believe things could be better. I mean, I still had a mess of a life but hey maybe I could still turn it around. I buried my head in his chest trying to hide my face, I didn't want him to look at me. Would he actually-does he actually love me?
We stood there in the parking lot for a good 20 minutes, not caring about who would see us. Then Gavin said we should go home, or rather just leave I guess. I was completely fine with that. I fell asleep 20 minutes in, I was exhausted after the festival.
I woke up to find myself in a bed. I sat up and looked around. I was in Gavin's room, we'd hang out up here often. I got up and walked down the stairs. Gavin was on the couch, he was still sleeping. I decided to make breakfast. I love cooking, since my parents weren't around to make it for my siblings and I, I made it myself.
I peered into the fridge. I found eggs, bacon, and eventually looked around for the toast. I was mid way into cooking the eggs when I heard something. I turned to see a half awake Gavin stumble into the kitchen.
"That smells good. What are you making?" He asked.
"Eggs, bacon, and toast. I've made enough for both of us. I didn't expect you to wake up until I was done cooking." I responded with.
He sat down at the table. I finished cooking after 20 minutes. I set down the food at the table, and got us plates and silverware. I thought to myself, it would be nice if it could always be this way. But I knew in my mind, something would be out there to go wrong.
