MY GUARDIAN ANGEL// MICHAEL CLIFFORD FAN-FICTION

CHAPTER 3

END OF FLASH BACK
TRIGGER WARNING
I run through the airport desperately trying to find the exit sign. I'm fighting back tears, my mind is circling to everything that could go wrong tomorrow. How can I face the first day of school without Michael?

YOU CAN'T AND WON'T.

I start sprinting towards the comfort of my room. I throw open the door and bolt up to my room and slam the door shut. Turn on my I POD and Blair music.

"So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain.

Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?

A smile from a veil?

Do you think you can tell?

Did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?

Hot ashes for trees?

Hot air for a cool breeze?

Cold comfort for change?

Did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.

We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,

Running over the same old ground.

What have we found?

The same old fears.

Wish you were here."

Song: Wish Were Here

Artist: Plink Floyd

I pace around my room finally letting the tears free. I fall to the floor shaking and violently sobbing.

YOU ARE SO STUPID. THIS IS WHY YOU NEVER GET CLOSE TO ANYONE

THEY ALWAYS LEAVE

ALWAYS

ALWAYS

I pull my legs into my chest and put my head into my hands and break down once again.

I try to fight the temptation with every part of me. My mind goes back to the promise I swore to Michael yesterday.

FLASH BACK------------ Yesterday

I sat on on my bed curled up with Michael, my head was on his chest. We were watching Forest Gump. ( Because it is Michaels favorite movie we must of watched this a million times.)

" Life is like a box of chocolates you never know what you are going to get." Forest Gump

" Hey princes."

I was snapped out of my train of thought. I raised my head to meet his gaze. "Yea?" " I want you to promise me something." He sat up took me by my sides and placed me on his lap. He wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted my chin up so we were face to face and inches apart.

" Chance I understand that school is starting up and that is hard and everything is hard and me leaving doesn't help." " Chance you mean so much to me. You are the only one who truly understands me, you are the only one that loved me after I showed my true colors....." " Chance do you remember the day we met?" I curl up against his chest still siting in his lap. " Yes of course I do." I nuzzle my head into his head he starts to play with my hair which is now blue. " When I saw you on the ground crouched over in pain. I was angry that someone could do that to someone so beautiful so perfect so full of life." " Then when you started to run away from me, my heart hurt you were so far from me. I ran after you. I saw you run into a bathroom. I sat outside the bathroom until you came out. I don't know how long I was there until I hear the door swing open. I stood up to see how beautiful you are my knees went weak. I was the happiest man alive when you talked to me. I looked down at your wrist and in an instant my heart broke into a million pieces." He wrapped his arms around me again picked me up and sat me down so we were both siting Indian style facing each other. " Chance you have to promise me you wont cut." I only now noticed that he was crying.

LOOK WHAT YOU DID YOU MADE HIM CRY. THIS IS WHY YOU NEVER GET CLOSE TO SOMEONE. YOU ALWAYS ENDING UP HURTING THEM AND FUCKING IT UP. SEE THIS IS WHY YOU DONT Deserve TO BE HERE. DO YOU NEED A BETTER A SIGN!! GOD YOUR SO PATHETIC.

" Chance my princes did you hear me?" " You are not alone you can call me anytime don't ever think you cant call me." " I love you so much Chance you stole my heart I never thought I was capable of loving someone so much, but yet here I am." I love you so much it hurt me to see you suffer."

"PLEASE CHANCE YOU HAVE TO PROMISE ME THAT YOU WONT CUT AGAIN THAT YOU WILL CALL ME.!!!!!!!!!!!"

"CHANCE YOU HAVE TO PROMISE ME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!"

He is sobbing now.

"OH GOD CHANCE!!"

I take my hands and cup them around his face and pull in for a kiss. As I pull away from him.....

" I promise you I wont cut."

SIKE

He wraps his arms around me and pull me on top of him. " You know I love right?" He smiles up at me. " I know you tell me about twenty times a day." I return a smile. " Good I don't fell like I say it enough." With that he places his hands and grasp them together on my lower back and our lips melted together.

END OF FLASH BACK

I lay on my side wrapped up in a ball on my floor and violently sobbing. I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE! I GIVE UP!! I jump up run into my bathroom open the cabinets and toss everything around. FUCK!! I CANT FIND IT!! He took it. Then I remembered that I have a secret spot where its at. I run to my closest and stand up on the chair to reach the top shelf. I finally have it in my hand relieve washes over me I through my self on my. I look down at my wrist and hesitate.

DO IT WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU WAITING FOR YOUR ALL ALONE!

YOU ARE ALWAYS ALONE ALWAYS BE NOTHING WILL CHANGE THAT!!!

" Michael." My voice cracked just thinking about him.

I ALWAYS KNEW THAT YOU WERE STUPID BUT NOT THIS CLUELESS

MICHAEL DOESN'T LOVE YOU HE PITTYS YOU.

HES GOING TO FIND SOMEONE WHO IS  MORE pretty , SKINNER AND MORE MENTALLY STABLE THAN YOU.......

FACE IT HONEY HE IS NOT COMING BACK.

HE ALREADY HAS FORGOTTEN  ALL ABOUT YOU.

I couldn't take this anymore my head was spinning.

My heart just broke. How could it break if it was never full to begin with?

So many questions were filling my mind. I looked down at my hand I opened it to show the only thing that could take away my pain away. I take the blade in to my other hand, I remove my bracelets and push the blade into my skin again and again.

I look down realizing what I have done.

I fall down to the ground again and weep.

I FAILED YOU I AM SO SORY

DONT LEAVE COME BACK

DONT FORGET

DONT FORGET ME

PLEASE

I BROKE OUR PROMISS

OH MY GUARDIAN ANGEL HOW I NEED YOU NOW MORE THAN EVER

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Hey!!! How do you guys like it so far?? First of all I didn't mean to offend anybody and if I did I am truly sorry. Well I am sorta happy with it so far. Does anyone have any questions or ideas or predictions you should message me or comment. The first thing is that Chance is not talking to herself she has depression and really low self esteem and that is what is telling her those things. I love the adorable MANCE moment. I just fell more in love with Michael than I was before and I never thought that was possible any way thank you guys for reading this!!! I hope you have a great day!! STAY STRONG MY LOVES!!! Did you guys like the song it fit that scene perfectly. I am sorry about my obsession with Pink Floyd..