MY GUARDIAN ANGEL// MICHAEL CLIFFORD FAN-FICTION

CHAPTER 5

END OF FLASH BACK (FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL

" I hurt myself today

To see if I still feel

I focus on the pain

The only thing that's real

The needle tears a hole

The old familiar sting

Try to kill it all away

But I remember everything

[Chorus:]

What have I become

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know goes away

In the end

And you could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns

Upon my liar's chair

Full of broken thoughts

I cannot repair

Beneath the stains of time

The feelings disappear

You are someone else

I am still right here

[Chorus:]

What have I become

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know goes away

In the end

And you could have it all

My empire of dirt

I will let you down

I will make you hurt

If I could start again

A million miles away

I would keep myself

I would find a way."

SONG: HURT

ARTIST: JOHNY CASH

I woke up with the sound of my alarm going off. I kicked the covers  off me. I walk into my bathroom I accidentally toke a glimpse in the mirror. I stare at the image in front of me.
That can't be.

I focus at the girl starring back at me. The girl had blood shut eyes, her eyes were dull and lifeless. Her lips were chaped and bruised her cheeks were tear stained. Her thighs were  as skinny as a twig her stomach was brussed and could see a litle glimpse of her ribs. The girl had cuts on both wrists, both upper arm's. She had cuts on her hips, stomach and thighs . I turn away from the mirror. I am so disgusted with my self.
No one loves you. Look at you. You are a disgrace. No one could ever love you if you look like that.

Michael loves me.
Can you not hear how stupid you sound? Michael never loved you he pitties you. You pathetic piece of shit. Who could ever love somebody that looks like you. Thats right no one.

I turn the shower on. I Step in the shower quickly flinching back by the ice watter hitting my body.

"Pathetic, worthless, mistake, waste of space."

All my memories from my past kept replaying in my mind. I was lost in the dark place in my mind desperately trying to escape. I felt the burning sensation against my skin.

" Chance! Five minutes we need to go! You can't be late on the first day." My mom yelled from downstairs.

Shit

I jump out of the shower, cleaned up my wounds. I put on my eye makeup. Not enough time to do my hair just brushed it and prayed it wouldn't frizz up. I slide in my black skinny jeans, put my favorite Green Day T-shirt and hop in my black chucks. " Chance! Time to go!" My mom yelled. " Coming!" I run down stairs throw my bag on my shoulders. I get in the passengers seat. My mom starts heading to my school. She's talking but I can't hear her. My mind wonders to all the horrible things that could go wrong today.

" Chance,Chance!! we are here ." My mom says as we are pulling up to the front entrance. I get out of the van, I walk up the stairs my hands are shaking at my sides. I through open the door open, hiding my face. I walk to go find my new locker. Untill I lose my balance and fell to the ground. Everyone turns to see the scene unfold. In an instant the whole hallway eruptes in laughter. I look up to see Kenzie laughing her ass off. I quickly run to a bathroom, I lock my self in a stall and let the water works loose.

Ten minutes go by and I have run dry of tears.

I walk to the bathroom mirrors and try to fix my eye makeup. I hear the door swing open and slam shut. I didn't think anymore of it untill I am being yanked around to face Kenzie she punches me in the stomach, as I topple over in pain. She kicks my right shoulder. I'm wrapped up in a ball. My shoulder is throbbing.

" Where is your body guard today?" Did he finally realize how worthless you are? At least he will find someone that's wort it. You pathetic piece of shit!!" Kenzie spat in my face.

LATER THAT DAY

The last bell of the day couldn't have come any quicker. I jog out of the class room, sprint up the stairs to go to my locker. I through all the things I need to do for school in my bag as fast as I can to make it out alive. I run as fast as I can down the stairs avoiding running into people. I see the last stair case then im free. I brush my hand against the bar, I was pulled back of off my feet. Shoved into the corner I have come to know to well. I was now toppled over in pain. Trying to dodge there kicks but failed miserably.

LATER THAT NIGHT

I pace around in my room with my arms over my head resting on my neck.
He never loved you.
He only pitied you.
He's to good for you.
You can't compete with the other girls.
You mean nothing to him.
He has already forgotten all about you.
You are long long forgotten.
There's no point to hold on to something that was already destroyed a long time ago.

I glance up at my phone that was sitting on my shelf.
Do it there is no other way.

ring ring ring

"Well Hello my princess. How are you? How was your first day at school?" Michael asked me. I take a shaky breath. "Princes what's wrong?" Michael asked with fear In his voice.

" Michael we need to break up."

"What.. Why..." Hes frantic now.

"I'm sorry" I end the call.
ANGEL'S DONT BELONG WITH DEVILS.

AN------

Hey how is it so far? Sory about the break up. Please don't hate me. It will make since in the end.It will come together I promiss. But thanks for reading. If anyone has any questions or suggestions I would love to hear it. There is a michael POF comming. Thank you so much! sory bout missed spelling I'm on my phone. Stay strong I love you guys so much!