"Your my favourite person."
"Your my favourite person too."
I found it.
I fount Simon's suicide note.
I was cleaning up the room, putting clothes away and dusting. I opened Simon's top drawer, something I had never done. That was his stuff so I never touched it, until today.
I seen a white piece of paper, with his scrappy handwriting on it spelling out "Allanah." I didn't know what it was at first so I took it out and sat down to read it.
Dear Allanah.
If you are reading this, it means you finally built up the courage to open my drawer. Unfortunately this isn't a nice letter to read, and I'm sorry. You know I have depression, you know that I'm sensitive to peoples comments about me and if you haven't found me in the bathroom when you did, I would have been gone a long time ago, but I'm glad you found me. I wanted to spend my last few months with you, only you. You don't understand how much I love you Lana. And I'm so sorry that I left you, but I'll see you again some day gorgeous. I love you more than anything.
Si xx
By the time I had read the first sentence I was sobbing, my hands were shaking and my vision blurred my tears. I felt arms wrap around me, I looked up to see Freya holding me.
I appreciated Freya calming me down.
But that's not who I needed to calm me down.
He just wasn't here anymore.
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