Suicidal Love

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Namjoon's pov
I really love Jin. Everything about him makes me feel so warm inside. He's the most caring and kindest man I have ever met. Every time I stare at him, I just want him even more and more in my arms. The problem is... I think he's straight. I mean come on! You can't THAT handsome and hot and be gay! I never want to tell him that I'm madly in love him, but I always give him hint,that's why I'm so clingy onto him. He's also one of the only people I really talk about my problems to. He's so understanding and thoughtful. He spends so much time looking after us all, and we look after Jin as much he does to us! Oh how I love Jin...

Jin's pov
It's been 2 weeks since me and Namjoon haven't been talking. I have know idea why he has been avoiding me.

I woke up this morning and came downstairs when I saw the wonderful thing I've ever seen since. It was Namjoon at the table with a spectacular breakfast for two. There were red petals on the floor, candles lit up on the table and one of the most beautiful rose I have ever set my eyes on in the middle of the table. Namjoon was in his best suit checking his watch. Damn he looked even more sexy than he normally does! But suddenly, the doorbell rang. Namjoon quickly walked to the door. When he opened it, a lady came in and immediately hugged Namjoon. He kissed the girl on the lips and I ran away.

Tears were rushing down my face as I lay on my bed. How can he not tell me that he has a girlfriend? He tells me everything! I wanted to hate him but I know I'll be lying if I did.

2 devastating hours of crying pasted. I heard a knock on my door. When I opened the door, I saw tae rubbing his eyes.
" Good morning hyung." Tae greeted as he yawned his head off, "what's wrong?"
I love how innocent tae is, always so curious.
" Is about Namjoon having a girlfriend?"
My mouth opened with surprise and shock wondering how he knows.
"Uh how do you know?"
"Oh didn't he tell you?"
My anger increased even more.
"Uh... no."
"Oh well I'm the only person who and I think you should know as well. You still love him right?"
Everyone in bts ( besides rm of course) knows that I'm gay and I like Namjoon. It's so obvious, even strangers know I like him.
I sighed with sadness. Then jungkook popped up and said "hey hyung! Namjoon hyung wants you!" I groaned and went downstairs. I wonder what he wants to tell me.

A/n Hiiiii so I'm doing an double update just because I want to writing ff makes me so happy!! Anyway hope u have a great day!!!