Suicidal Love

4

Jin's pov
As I walked down the stairs, I saw Namjoon and his so called girlfriend talking. Seeing them together made me sick. Like, what does she have that I don't!? I carried on walking down and greeted them.
"Oh hi Jin hyung!" Namjoon greeted with a cheerful smile. His dimples showed. Oh fuck! I'm getting really soft now! Those dimples always get me!
"Hi..." I said with a cold stare at the girl.
"Hi Jin! I heard lots about you!" Replied the girl with a smile. She had pretty pale and smooth skin, big brown eyes and was around my height. She flipped her black hair and put her hand out for me to shake. I shake it only because that was the nice thing to do.
"Jin, this is Ana, my girlfriend." As rm introduced me to Ana he winked at me. I was so confused. Why did he wink at me?
" Oh so you're namjoon's girlfriend, so what brings you here?" I asked trying not to sound rude.
" Oh it's our one month anniversary today!" Said Ana still smiling. I swear she's faking smiling, I can tell.
"Oh ok well happy anniversary to you two."
" Thanks! You're so kind! Babe was right!" As Ana said babe, I felt a lump in my throat cringing.
" Anyway I need to go. Bye babe!" Ana left and slammed the door in my face. I hate her already.
Namjoon's pov
" Namjoon?" Jin asked in a very soft voice ( one of his cutest voices).
"Yea?" I started into his eyes. It's like a beautiful galaxy, definitely matches his face.
" You never told my you have a girlfriend!" Jin sounded so pissed all of a sudden!
"Oh but I was abo-"
" About to do what huh? Tell me after you have the time of your life with a bitch that has no respect towards others?!!"
"Wtf Jin! What got into you!" I couldn't believe what came out of Jin's mouth. Although I didn't love Ana, I was still triggered.
"I-I thought you will tell me everything! And plus, what does that slut have that I don't!?" Tears were filling jin's eyes as he screamed at me with disgust.
"But why do you care so fucking much!?" Why did I yell at Jin, he hated being yelled at.
"C-cause I love you Kim Namjoon!" As soon as he said that, he ran to his room, crying every single tear out. What have I done...

Jin's pov
Why did I say that? Now Namjoon is just gonna hate me even more!

I ran into my room crying for the second time today. Rm will never love me and I know it. A few minutes later, I heard the most loudest knock ever on the door. I know it was definitely yoongi. I told him to come in.
"Yo hyung what happened? I saw you and Namjoon having some feisty argument downstairs." Yoongi asked with care. He not like this especially to me. I told yoongi everything about what happened, including when I told rm that I love him.
" Woah... that was deep, but you know that Namjoon only has a girlfriend just to cover up the fact that's he's gay for you?" I was shook as those words came out of suga's mouth, but didn't believe it.
" No, he's straight. I saw him kissed his girlfriend."
" Again, only doing that to cover up the fact he's gay for you!"
" Uh and how would YOU know anyway, it's not like you know what love is?" I mumbled under my breath, he heard me.
" You know what, you should go ask him yourself , then you will find out." I couldn't believe yoongi sounded so calm! Well he does secretly love all of us inside.
1 hour passed and I heard another knock on the door.
" Come in!!" It was Namjoon. Out of his suit and in a normal shirt and jeans. Man he looked hot. I was feeling hot already!
" Hey... can we talk?" Namjoon asked in a gentle voice.
" Yea, sure." There was a deafening silence between the two of us. Then Namjoon said, "I'm sorry... for not telling you the truth." I was confused... what does he mean the truth?
"It's ok... " there was another long pause.
"Why didn't you tell me you had a girlfriend before?"
"Because I was afraid."
"How? You weren't afraid to tell Tae."
"What did he tell you? I'll kill him!"
"No, don't."
"Namjoon."
"Yea"
" Why did you wink at me when you were introducing me to Ana?"
"Cause I don't love her." I was as shook as ever.
"W-what do you mean?"
Namjoon's pov
I sighed, I was ready to tell Jin everything, and I mean everything.
" I'm gay... and I love some else. I only say that I'm straight just to make myself feel less guilty. Same goes to Ana. I'm only going out with her because I thought I'll feel less ashamed of myself. Honestly, I hate her. She only thinks about herself and tried to have sex with me!"
Jin's pov
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. So he IS gay! But who does he love?
" Namjoon, there's nothing to be ashamed about being gay. I'm gay as well." We were staring at each other. I love his brown eyes.
"Um... so do you lov-"  I was cut off with Namjoon's soft lips on mine. It felt  so nice! He wrapped his arms around my waist. I kissed back. After 7-10 seconds of kissing, Namjoon backed off and said,
"I love you."