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65/ Jin

I took the blade into my hand and slid it across my arm. Pain filled up my body but I didn't notice it. Beads of blood came out. I traced my finger over it making the blood smear. The 65 cuts on my arm didn't mind me. I didn't care. '65 in total, for not eating and for not being who I am' I said into my mind. There was a knock on my door. I threw the blade away and rolled down my sleeve.

"Come in!" I yelled.

"Hey Baby!" Jin said and jumped on my bed.

"What are you doing?" He asked.

Just a few moments ago I was cutting my skin with a blade, but now the blade it in the trash and the blood is smeared cause of my sweatshirt going over it.

"Nothing." I said short.

"What's wrong?" He asked me sitting up.

"Nothing, I'm fine." I said and faked a smile.

"Let's go somewhere." He said.

"Like where?" I asked him.

"I don't know!" He said with a small laugh.

"It's up to you princess." He said with a smile.

"I want to stay and cuddle." I said while sitting on his lap.

"I'm fine with that." He said and then started to tickle me.

I couldn't breath and tried to get away, failed. He grabbed my arm and I winced and pulled back. I held my arm close to my chest.

"What's wrong?" He asked with worry in his voice.

I shook my head and was about to get up to see if he popped open some cuts, but he grabbed my wrist and pulled up my sleeve. His face fell, tears come into his calm brown eyes, and his eyebrows tensed as if he thinks this is a nightmare.

"Baby girl..." He said

"I'm sorry! I didn't mean it!" I said

"No,no, this is just a bad dream, it's all fake." He said and blinked his eyes a little faster.

His hands traced the cuts making pain full up my arm, but I didn't say anything.

"Why didn't tell me... or one of the boys?" He asked still with his fingertips on a cut tracing it side to side.

"I thought you would get made." I whispered in shame.

"I would never get mad at you baby, I promise." He said still looking at my arm.

"I know, you told me, but I still was scared." I said.

"Why didn't you tell the boys?" He asked.

"I know they would get mad at me. I don't want Namjoon to know, he would flip out since he's my best and only friend right now." I whispered again.

"What you mean? I know you have a closer relationship with Namjoon then the rest of the boys, but their your friends also." He said.

"No! No there not!" I yelled.

"Why say that?" He asked.

"They were all talking about me yesterday. I heard it all. I was in the other room with Namjoon and you were out. They said that I'm not enough for you. That I don't mean anything to you and that you don't love me. Namjoon didn't hear it cuz he was laughing and all this, but I heard it and it broke my heart." I said.

"Oh hell no, they are not going to talk to my baby girl like that." He said getting madder and madder by the second.

"It's ok, and I thought it was true and I started to do it again. The ones that are new are the redder ones, the scars are what I did a couple months ago." I said helping him understand all the cuts.

"I'm sorry baby." He said and kissed my cheek.

"It's ok baby." I said and kissed his lips.

There was a knock on the door. I pulled my sleeve down.

"Hey we are going to watch a movie, y'all want to come and watch it with us?" Namjoon asked.

"Sure." I said and stood up.

Me and Jin walked hand in hand down the stairs and to the couch. We sat by each other and Namjoon on my other side.

"I love you, and don't listen to those boys." He said and kissed my cheek.

"I won't." I said and kissed his lips.

"Gross." I heard Namjoon say.

"Oh what? Your just jealous cuz you can't get a girlfriend?" I teased him.

"Oh shut up!" He said and hit my arm.

"I'm joking oppa, I love you." I said and hugged him.

"Yeah, I know you do." He said and smiled.

"If you say so." I said and took my attention to the movie.