Bts Imagines and reactions/// requests open

Self hate/ RM

"Hey babe, we are all going out. Want to come?" My boyfriend Kim Namjoon asked me.

"I'm not hungry, but I'll go." I said with a weak smile and sat up.

"You haven't eaten in like 2 days. You ok?" He asked worried.

"Yeah, I ate today when you were gone." I made up a lie.

"Ok, you promise?" He asked.

I nod my head but crossing my fingers. I hate to lie to him but I can't tell him that I haven't. He would be worried to death.

"Well, let's go then." He said with a smile and grabbed my hand.

He dragged me downstairs and out the house. We got into the car and me and him sat in the back by ourselves. He grabbed my hand again.

"Y/n I'm worried about you." He said looking up at me.

"Why? I'm fine." I lied.

I just want to tell him that I'm not fine. I want him to understand that I'm weak. I can't get through life by myself. I can't tell him that I'm not eating. I can't tell him when I look into gne mirror that I cringe and then cry. I can't tell him that I cut myself again. I can't tell him that I hate myself.

"Y/n? You there?" He asked waving a hand in front of my face.

"Oh, sorry. What was you talking about?" I asked him.

"Nothing baby." He said while shaking his head looking down a little.

"No baby, tell me what you were talking about. Please?" I asked him.

"I'm scared that you are getting worse again. I'm scared that you might take your life..." He whispered.

"Namjoon, look I'm fine, ok? No need to worry. I love you, and if I ever have a problem I will come to you I promise." I said with a small smile at the end.

I leaned in and kissed his lips.

"We are here!" Jimin yelled witch caused me to jump and scream.

"Oh my god! Don't scare me!" I said holding my heart.

They all laughed. We got out of the car and into the restaurant. We sat down with me sitting by Namjoon and Jimin.

"Y/n, what are you getting?" Jin asked me.

"Oh, I had already ate today. I'm not hungry." I said with a small fake smile.

I watch his eyes move from mine to Namjoon and gave him a small nod. My eyebrows tensed in confusion.

"Baby, are you sure you ate?" Namjoon asked me.

"Yes, I did. If I have to prove it, I'll gef something here!" I said getting mad at them.

"Damn girl chill." Jungkook said.

"Fuck off." I said and flipped him off.

"Baby, chill. We just want to make sure you do eat." Namjoon said while putting his hand on my thigh.

I took his hand off of my thigh cuz I was not in the mood right now.

"I'm just sick and tired of all of y'all getting on my nerves, besides Jimin he never does anything to me. Y'all need lessons from him." I snapped at all of them.

They were all silent having nothing to say.

"Hi, what can I get for you guys to drink?" The waitress asked us.

"Coke."

"Coke."

"Coke."

"Water."

"Coke."

"Coke."

"Coke."

"Water."

We all said.

"Ok I will be back with them." She said a smile.

"So, What are we doing tomorrow?" Yoongi asked.

"I might go shopping." Teahyung said.

"And if he does I'm going with him." J-hope said.

"I'm going on a date!" Jin said excited.

"Me and y/n are going to the movies, or something like that." Namjoon said.

"I'll go with yoongi." Jimin said.

"Yeah same." Jungkook said.

"Here you guys go, and what can I get y'all to eat?" She asked with yet another smile.

"Yeah, can I have a steak..." I blocked everyone out and to what they are ordering.

"Y/n, it's your turn." Yoongi said.

"Oh, I don't want anything thanks." I said and looked right back at the ground.

"Just get her a to go salad." Namjoon said.

"Ok, I'll be out with everything." She said and took there minus.

"I thought you were getting something." Taehyung said.

I just shook my head. God I can't wait to get home.