Forgotten memories

Chapter 1

*Beep*   *Beep*   *Beep*

This is the first sound I hear. Everything is dark and it almost seems impossible to open my eyes. An intense pain and dizziness are coming from my head, also my right hand hurts like crazy. It feels like I'm floating through the darkness, it's making me feel sick. Where am I? What is going on?

I try to open my eyes again, but still they're too heavy. What if I can never open them again? May be I'm blind! Or.. I'm in a dark room. Panic. What happened? The only reassuring thing is that I feel my breast constantly rising and falling, at least I'm still alive.

I pay attention to my breathing for a while and calm down a little. It actually makes me kinda sleepy. No! I can't fall asleep again. I have to open my eyes. I focus on my eyelids again and try to push them up with all the power I have. Yes! My left eye lid moves a little and I feel a small flutter.

After a while, I finally succeed in opening first my left and then my right eye. Everything is extremely vague at first, but after I blink for a couple of times I start to see things more clear. There is so much light that my head starts to ache even more. I flinch a little but nonetheless keep on going. I have to know what the hell is going on. I try to look and suddenly everything sharpens up. The first thing I see is the spotless creamy blanket that's covering my body.

I slowly move my head a little and my gaze goes to my right arm. It's covered in crisp white bandage. The pain still hasn't faded away and I look up again, trying to forget about it. I notice there are all kinds of machinery beeping around me. 

Then it finally hits me. I'm in the hospital. 

Panic starts to flow through my head. What has happened? Why am I here? Where are my parents? What if I'm going to die? Or may be I can never walk again! O MY GOD.  My throat feels really dry and I feel my heart beat quicken. I quickly close my eyes again and after a while my breathing slows down again. I have to focus my thoughts on other stuff otherwise I know I'll start to panic again.

I slowly open my eyes again and sigh deeply, although it does hurt in my chest. My throat is still really dry and I cough a little. There is a glass of water on a small table next to me but I don't dare to move. Because of all the machinery and wires I feel like I'm a porcelain doll, besides I'm afraid that it'll hurt myself. 

Suddenly the door opens and a nurse comes walking in. When she sees I'm awake, her eyes widen and she rushes towards my bed.

'Finally! How are you feeling?' She asks with concern.

I nod a little, still not really able to move due to the almost unbearable pain in my head. I point with my eyes towards the glass of water and cough a little to make it clear. I don't dare to talk, afraid of what will happen. Fortunately the nurse understands and she quickly grabs the glass of water and puts a straw in it. Really? I groan but still start to drink through the straw. The water feels refreshing and it's too soon when the nurse puts the glass away again.

'Wow you can't drink too much yet, it'll hurt your stomach'

But I'm contented. I sigh and feel that my eyelids become heavy again. This time I'm not fighting the sleep that's coming over me.

I close my eyes and soon I'm flying away into an imaginary dreamworld, where everything isn't messed up. 

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When I open my eyes again, I feel a little better. The sleeping has done good on me and the ache has gotten less. The ache in my head is still present, but it has moved more to the background. Unfortunately the ache in my right arm is still there, but it's a strange sort of pain. It's throbbing but doesn't actually hurt, it just feels really weird. There is also still a pressure on my chest, I'm guessing it are my ribs that aren't collaborating. I try to move everything and am relieved when I feel I can. I stretch my legs carefully and sigh again. Although I've had a lot of sleep, I still feel dead tired. Not fair.