This song up above really just relates to my mood now, and unintentionally goes with part of this story too, but I also like the one below so you pick 🙂
Tears streamed down my face, anxiety tearing at my throat, choking me. My lungs felt blocked and they burned like hell, My eyes red and puffy, my thoughts were strange. I didn't feel in control but I didn't know what or why. It was as if my fox was taking control of me, hating our mate for not waiting, that his own lust for other girls had to be too strong. He didn't wait. The pain she felt, the agony of it all. How could such a broken soul ever replace her heart? How could she forgive someone who just didn't understand. He didn't understand how long she had been waiting, longing, crying while waiting for the endless beatings to fade. I knew it would happen by never like this.
I tried not to recall my past but it wasn't working. It was as if my foxes emotions started pouring into my mind, making me nervous as his presence sat across from me. Or maybe it was because I had been vomiting the last 10 minutes, because of food poisoning from breakfast.
Damn you McDonalds. But I really have to say I loved that toasty
salted caramel Mc cruffin.
It was heavenly...
At least, that's what their pack doctor suggested, about the food poisoning and all. The disgust in his face was a clear warning that I wasn't welcome here, and no one else seemed to see the looks he gave me, but I didn't care.
I sighed, taking a small sip of water as I started to feel better, the nausea starting to fade away. It didn't help that Adrian was at my side any chance he could get before Jet would force him to back up. It's been a day now, I had to stay the night in a dull room. It was the moment I walked in the house that the memories came flooding into my mind, how years ago I knew nothing about being human, how I would have died to live a day as a normal human. Everything Kelly had described to me, girls having crushes on guys, being rejected sometimes, how she hated that drama. I thought I would love it, to experience human feelings, to have loving supportive parents, to have my own life at school in a popular group with friends who love to gossip.
Those memories quickly faded as my stomach started to become queasy, and without warning I spewed all over the floor, to my horror and the pack members disgust who saw the whole thing. What's worse? Half of it flew onto Adrian. But he didn't laugh at me. He didn't get angry or put on one of those disgusted b*tchy that so many people gave me. No, instead he growled at his pack members, in his alpha voice he ordered them to have some self respect to his Allies. And his mate. Yeah that shut them up, and I would have smirked at them, adding my own words, if I wasn't still puking on the floor.
Suddenly Jet burst in the door, "Astra! I can't stand it here, you mate is SO annoying like I totally understand why you hate him! He's an freaking jerk and he's so cocky and annoying and" I cut him off, "IF YOU will not SHUT UP and keep disrespecting MY mate like that, YOU can go to hell!" I growled, but the last part was my fox. I mentally face palmed as I realised what I had said to my brother. Like I am the one who had said similar things to him only a week ago, probably. Jet just stared at me, angry and stress showed on his face, "I know you are sick and I respect that, but once you are better, we will have this meeting then we will get out of this hell hole and don't expect me to come back" he growled before loudly slamming the door and stomping away angrily.
So I was yet again left to stare into space and get lost in my own thoughts again. This room that I am now in, has so many memories in its own ways. Too many. The window faces the mountains, the ones that I remember I used to be on, hiding, waiting, watching. When you only have one friend in life, what else could a helpless fox do all day? The days I was a weak little fox, the day Alpha Drake had saved me, after I saved Kelly, then I became best friends with Kelly. I'll never forget those years, those feelings I had. It was as if hope has been trying to find me for so long and I don't know where its gone now. The room then went dark, a cloud must have covered up the sun, truely leaving me in my gloomy thoughts.
I eventually started to space out, slumped on my bed, lost in my own thoughts unaware of it, and unaware that the door had opened.
"Hey... how are you doing?" His all too familiar voice sounded from the door at the other side of the room. I smiled, keeping my face low, "I didn't think Jet would let you in any time soon" I replied, hoping that I wouldn't start turning into an emotional wrecking ball right in front of him.
"Well here I am", he sighed, "Jet went outside to have some fresh air" his voice said sadly, as if he thought I would be happy to see him. That's not the first time he has used that voice on me, but I'm not angry at him right now... it's as if it's having a different affect on me now. I finally glanced up, startled a bit to how he was standing right in front of me now. His warm breath hit my face and I shivered. He was so close.
When my eyes met his, I felt a spark of hope. Can we actually be together?
"I missed you" the words slipped from my mouth before I could even think it through, but before I could start making any regrets, the way his face lit up with pure happiness gave me sparkles. Yes sparkles.
It was as if a cloud had just uncovered the sun, the room suddenly became light and his face looked so radiant with the suns reflection on his face. A bright light was all I saw, as I looked into his eyes, that I saw myself staring back, in his reflection. All I wanted to do was hug him right now, tell him everything is going to be fine, we will be alright now. All I wanted to do was touch him, smell him, just to make sure he is my mate.
It was as if everything happened so quickly, because the next second I was in a tight embrace between his arms and I felt everything going crazy. His touch was so comforting, and I could have sworn he had somehow read my thoughts because he was hugging me tight, encouraging me to let everything out, to talk to him, he was telling me 'it's ok' and I just cried in his arms, and for the first time, I let my walls down, letting him feel what my thoughts were and because his were already open, the mate bond responded, letting us sit in each others thoughts.
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Half an hour passed by quickly, and yet it also felt like forever. I wanted to say something to him, try to tell him want I thought but he basically already knew, and I felt stupid, so I tried not to act awkward now. "You know, you can tell me anything you want, please don't feel shy. I really want to get to know you more" he said, making me blush, and start to feel idiotic. " You know what?" I asked. "Yeah I probably do but keep going" he said, smirking. So I punched him hard, but playfully in his ribs. He blinked, as if shocked I had just done that. "Don't get too cocky with me, boy" I laughed, smirking right back.
"Oh I am so scared... dare to tell me what will happen if I don't listen?" He said, leaning closer and looking at me with a mischievous grin. "Shut up" I mumbled, not really sure how to respond to what he had clearly said. He seemed to have noticed, because he instantly moved back, regret filled his eyes, "Astra I'm so so sorry, if I ever get too close please don't hesitate to tell me, I promise I won't get too close ever again."
I sighed, wondering if our small relationship would ever get anywhere, because I don't know the basics of loving someone and Alex...
I just wasn't ready at this point in time, but I wanted to start slow. I just didn't want to say that because mates in general don't 'take it slow' or 'need some space and time.'
But I have to be honest with him, I have to tell him the truth.
"I just need a little more time" I blurted out, not really sure how to say it, so I sad it fast and idiotically. Adrian just smiled at me, and said nothing. "Why are you smiling?"I asked. "because you basically just said we can eventually be together" he said, his beaming smile broke my heart, because of how he said that. He had so much hope. So much inspiration came out of those few words, because it inspired me at how much he still believed we could have a chance together. We can still make up and forget the past like mature people, take our time and try so hard to stay out of drama that will tear us apart.
It is going to take time though. So much time, but time is the beginning of hope and a future.
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Hey! Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter! If you did please press the star, if not, press it because you might still have hope for this story!
Go ahead and predict what is going to happen in the next chapter, as it is going to be in Zeal's Perspective. I am still working on the cover for 'Forgotten by Her Past' but I have pretty much finished the first chapter.
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