Okay so I had a melt down yesterday. It was about Matty. I'm all okay now though. Matty wants to take things slow and not date me until I'm 16. Things have happened to him in the past and I should have understood straight away.
I love him very much but I also want him to be comfortable with what is happening and I want him to be happy too. He is honestly a great person and I'm happy we are taking it slow this time. Everything has gone way too fast since Valentine's Day. We fell "in love" too fast. I did, and still do, love him but I don't know what the difference between real love and puppy love is. I want to be with him. I want to spend a lot of my life with him. He is honestly incredibly respectful. I don't even need to wait that long. 2 months and 3 days is a very short amount of time. I can finish my GCSEs and then fall in love. The decision he has chosen is incredibly smart. I'm glad he has chosen to do this, and not just pretend. These 2 months will give us time to become closer instead of just plunging into everything. There has been times where I felt overwhelmed by how quick everything happened.
The fact that I'm nearly 16 is overwhelming too. I didn't think I was that close to my exams and turning 16.
I really hope that Matty is happy now because he honestly deserves to be happy. He is such an amazing person and I would rather take it slow and build a relationship.
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