Invisible [h.s.]

Chap 3-Point to Me

        *Jezabelle's Pov* 

I woke up from the sun peaking through the windows. All the memories from last night came flooding back to me. I noticed Harry still asleep beside me. He look so peaceful, soft snores falling from his lips. His lips. They looked so soft and just so...kissable. Did  I want to kiss Harry? Do I actually even want to be friends with him? I shook my head to rid of these ridiculous thoughts and got up out of his bed. I looked around his kitchen to find something to make for breakfast, even though I could just leave him and go over my my flat and be alone again. But I wanted to thank him for comforting me and listening. I'm not sure if I should bring up his comment he made about me being beautiful last night when he thought I was sleeping. Don't get me wrong I was like half awake half asleep. All the sudden the song La La La by Naughty Boy and Sam Smith popped into my head. I couldn't help but sing aloud to it, not loud enough to wake the neighbors but just loud enough for me to hear myself. I turned around to go get Harry for breakfast but he was right behind me causing me to run into him almost dropping the food. 

        "I-um I made this for you," I shoved the plate into his hand and shuffled away to the table. I sat and ate with my head low. 

        "You have a beautiful voice ya know. I mean the way you hit-," 

        "Yo-you heard that!?" my eyes going wide with shock. He nodded his head yes and continued eating his food. "Thank you for last night. I mean just listening to me and comforting me. I guess I never realized how much i missed having someone to talk to, ya know," 

        "Your welcome, if you ever need someone I'm always right next door," he winked "Or just text or call me, I'm always happy to help," he smiled and i nodded my head. Debating whether or not to bring up the comment, I've decided yes. 

        "So about last night, to answer your question. Its very easy to ignore someone like me, simply because I'm not beautiful, I'm not kind or precious. I'm just me nothing special," I shrugged. 

        "Bullshit, your the most beautiful person I've ever met. Why cant you just accept that someone wants to be there for you at all times, that I want to be there to comfort you to make you smile, to just be there dammit!" he clenched his fist on the table. I was shocked. Not once have I ever heard those words come from someones mouth, let alone someone I just met last night. I got up, put my dish in the sink, grabbed my stuff and walked out the door. I could hear Harry calling my name wanting me to come back but I just couldn't. Why does he even fucking care!? No one ever cares, and if they do they don't fucking show it like I said before. I've never cared, I've never bothered to let someone take care of me and I'm sure as hell not going to start now. Cause I know what happens next, they act all buddy buddy and caring when you are alone, then at school they completely ignore you. Your invisible to them, just another shadow in the crowd. 

        I slammed my door closed and ran up to the bathroom. The one thing that can calm me is a hot shower. I stripped of my clothes, standing looking in the mirror at myself in disgust. Yes, I'm a very insecure person. I hate the way i look, I squeezed my stomach hoping it would take away some of the "fat" that's there. I'm not necessarily fat but I feel as if I am. Before the tears could start I jumped into the steaming shower, letting the hot water run over my body. The steam gives me the feeling of calm almost like its a drug. It lets my mind wonder off into a deep place of thought. The only problem is I couldn't get that damn Harry Styles out of my mind! Why do i push people out? That's one question only I know the answer to. I NEVER speak of what happened in my past. No I don't mean my mum and father, I'm talking about Zayn. I don't like thinking that the world can be so twisted and cruel, not just the world but a human can be capable of...never mind I'd rather not talk about it. All I know is it left me in a fragile state that Id rather not go back to. I knew that i would be in here for a while so instead of a shower, I filled the tub up with burning hot water and sat. I lent my head against the back of the bath to think. Without noticed my eyes drifted, sleep taking over me.

        I was awoken to pounding at my front flat door. Who the fuck is it?! I didn't even notice i was tired, but i guess i was. Looking at the clock on my phone said 12:30pm. I was only asleep for about 15 minuets although if felt like hours. I also noticed i had 5 missed calls and 10 miss texts all from Harry Styles. The pounding at my door didn't stop so, I drained my bath and wrapped a towel around my body marching down the stairs to see who it was. To my surprise it was the one and only Harry Styles standing at my front door with a big frown on his face. I couldn't help but laugh at him. He looked so adorable with that frown. Geeze, Jezabelle get your mind in check.

        "Where the hell were you?! I've been knocking for like 10 minuets, and I called you and texted you a shit load of times! Why the fuck are you in a towel?! Would if it were some creep at your door and not me, they could be getting ideas that I'm sure you don't want to know. Now get insi-," 

        "SHUT THE FUCK UP HARRY. You are NOT my parent and I'm almost an adult so you have no right to yell at me and tell me what to do. especially in my house!" I said angrily. who does he think he is coming in here acting like hes the boss. NEW FLASH your not! When I looked over at him he was staring at my body. His eyes roamed down them up again slowly over my body. I cleared my throat getting his attention then said "Ya know its not nice to stare. I might think your 'getting ideas that I'm sure I don't want to know'" I said mocking him and walking upstairs to my room, but before I got the stairs it spoke. 

        "Where do you think your going Jezzy?" he smirked.

        "Up to my room to put on some clothes so creeps like you don't get any ideas Hazza," I said they walked up stairs. Me knowing he's staring at my ass I purposefully made it sway. Ha point to me! Go Jezzy

        1; Jezzy 0; Hazza. 

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