The air begins to loose its thick sweet void
Caught in between the depth and the surface
It becomes thinner by the second,
there's no escape.
Rapidly gasping,
Pulling the air in and out.
In need of more,
trying to feel something,
anything;
other than panic;
It's never enough.
The air itself can not and will not release me from the toxin that takes hold.
Caressing my skin,
winding down my arms like slithering snakes only a centimeter or two thick - However,
miles long.
Catching sight;
a glimpse of the past Left unclosed.
It has a way of bouncing back to you.
Desperately clawing
Scratching at the core of my chest from the inside out.
The rapid fire sets my body to flames and I can't escape the hold it has on me.
Almost impossible to concentrate on anything else,
almost impossible to bear;
However I must.
For the sake of survival depends on it.
Although I can't help but question why I need to fight in order to survive when my body's physically stable,
When I can mentally understand the voices and the images were never real.
The only available options are to sit and continue to breath,
but am I breathing.?
I must be for my heart keeps pounding.
My blood continues to flow,
And my vision; it's blurry; but the light I take in,
its still visible.
I hold my arms in close;
protecting my torso from anymore damage,
For the sake of my skin depends on it.
Under attack by outside forces that seem to be non existent;
Triggered by a problem that's no longer apart of my life,
and yet it begins this spiral.
A cause and A never ending effect.
Winding tighter,
I can feel the cage trying to break open my skin.
So it can unlock the doors and release the pit of Despair that seems to form in-between my lower breasts : that tiny patch of skin,
What lies beneath it,
being squeezed, contracted, and ripped away;
A Claustrophobic heart I presume -
as am I,
I find myself to be.
Lost in reality
My mind and my body are both facing unwanted immortality;
and the general flow that had once seemed to take over was all an illusion.
And yet when this feeling is over,
Heavy only I know that within,
The toxins remain.
