Life After You

Life after you chapter-3 the lettre

The letter
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"Where are you going Alison?"
"I'm going to have some air.."
"Are you sure you ok baby?"
"I'm fine mom!"
"Ok.. just don't be back late ok?"
I got out and got into the car.
The drive was at least hour.. until I got into the place.
I was searching the street for few moments.. until I got into some building..
There is it.. room 9.
There is no words..
How Im feeling? I don't know.. I'm scared.. scared to know the truth.. or maybe find out something else.
What dose Chris hiding from me?..
In this room there is probably my answer.
Why Chris died.
I knocked on the door and there was a man from of me.
He was looks in my age.. I don't know..
"Can I help you?"
".. I'm sorry.. Joe?.."
"Yes?"
"Omg.. "
I hold the tears.. But I don't know for how long..
"Is everything ok..? How do you know who I'm?"
"I don't.. Chris told me."
"What?!.. what are you talking about.. how.."
"Did you knew Chris?.."
"Are you Alison?.."
"Yes! Chris left me a note he told me to come here.."
"Do you want get inside?"
"Yes.. thank you.."
I really didn't knew how dose Joe know Chris.. But how dose he knows me..?
I got inside of the house.. it's wasn't that Pretty I must to say..
Joe gave me some water and started to apologise for the mess.
"How do you know Chris?.."
"Wow um.. that's a long story.. but Chris was my best friend.. we know each other since 4 yesrs old.."
"Wow.. you was very close.. you know what happened to him right?.."
"Of course.. I'm sorry.. for you too.. he was telling me allot about you."
"Really?.."
"Yes.. he loved you so much.. sometimes it's was kind of creepy.."
I started to laugh with tears in my eyes..
Chris never told me about Joe.. im wondering why?.. Joe looks really nice.. And he is best friend.. Wich I never had the chance to met.
"Hey did you get here?.."
"Chris.. he left me that note. And your address.. why?"
"Let me see.."
Joe took the paper from my hand and he didn't seem surprised.
"He told me you will probably come here.."
"What?.."
"Chris left me note too.. actually... He left to  few people notes.
"What.. how.. "
"Alison.. it's must be hard for you.. I'm sorry.."
"Do you know why Chris did that?!"
"..the reason that you are here is because he probably left you a note."
"What are you talking about?! What are you his boxmail?!"
"Day.. before he died.. he gave me a box.. he told me not to open it untill tomorrow.. and I didn't.."
Omg.. Chris gave Joe the notes.. and he didn't opened that..
"So you saying.. you.. you could save him..?"
".. Alison.. I.. I didn't tought of him doing this.. how could I know..?"
"You could save him!! You! You ! You!"
I started to cry and scream.. I was so angry and sad and in shock in the same time..
Chris could be saved.. if Joe wasn't that idiot and opened the box.
"I'm sorry.. you have no idea how! I want to die every day.. I could save him.. but I didn't.."
"...no.. that's not your fault.. you didn't knew.. Chris.. "
"I'm so so sorry.. I know he was very important to you.. "
"You.. have no idea how.. I can't do it without him.. I miss him so much.."
Joe took my hand and gave me a pitty smile..
"Do you want to check.. if you have a note? .."
"..I'm scared.."
"I know.. but hey, I'm here with you.. "
Joe opened the box.. I was so scared.. how can ignore.. that box could save his life.
Inside the box.. there was few latters.. at least 5..
"He did left you a note.."
"I can't open it.."
"You have too.. "
"Did Chris left you a note too?.."
"He did.. you wanna read it?.."
"Can I..?"
"If it's makes you more ok so.. yes."
"Thanks.."
He grabbed the note from a book.. why did he save notes in there?.
"Here.."
"Are you sure..?.."
"You can read that.."
I was so scared.. But I opened the note.. cuze I really had too..
"Hey joe..
So.. I don't really know what to say..
I'm sorry.
But you need to know that I know what I'm doing..
And I'm not going to write about how a good friend you was and all the sweet stuff..
Because I think you know how good friend you was.
Thank you.. fir being there for me all of the time..
You are my brother.
I'm letting you save the box.. there is notes and.. Just give it to who comes to you..
There is the reasons why I'm dead and.. I need you to help me.
Thanks joe.
Chris."
"What.. Why he didn't told you why he did that?.."
"I guess he didn't wanted me to know.."
"So do you think he told me..?"
"You have to see and find out."
"I can't open it.. I'm scared."
"Scared from what?.."
Scared to know the truth.. maybe I don't know Chris that well.. I don't really know everything about his life.. Right..?
What if he did something really bad..? What if he killed someone.. maybe?..
I don't know.
Nobody does.. but maybe in this latter I will find out why dose my boyfriend killed himself.
"I'm scared to know something that I don't know about Chris."
"Listen.. Chris wasn't a bad guy.. I'm sure that he was just a little of bit sick.. that's what the doctors said too.."
"Wait.. so you really believe to all the rumors?!"
"I don't know.. what can possibly happened? He was perfect.. his life was perfect!"
"You don't know that! Even I don't know! Only Chris know! You can't know what really happened to him that he killed himself!"
"Well if you going to open that latter I will find out huh?!"
"I'm not going to open it!"
"Are you kidding right?"
No.
I'm not kidding..
I can't open it.
It's too much pain..
I cant hendall it.. I'm so hurt and sad.
Chris made me crazy.. he died and now I need to deal with that.
Who knows what Chris did?... But he killed himself so I'm sure there is a bad reason for that.
"I can't open it joe."
"Than why are you here?"
"So you kicking me out now?"
"No.. it's not what I meant.. I meant why are you here if you don't want to know the truth?"
"Because I'm scared of her.. I really do.. I'm scared that i can't handle with what Chris did or someone did to him.."
"I'm scared too.. but he was writing to you.. the truth.. he trusts you.. more than anyone."
"Hie do you know he wrote the truth in my latter?"
"I just know that."
".. I should go.. it's late and.."
"Yahah.. ok if that's what you want."
"Thank you Joe.. it's was really important to me to meet you."
"I had the pleasure too Alison."
I grabbed my bag and got out of the building.
The latter was in my bag.
The drive home was like an hour.. and when I opened my phone I sew 10 missed calls for my mom.
"Where have you been Alison?!"
"Mom hi.."
"You Know what the time is?!"
"21:30 mom."
"Do you think it's funny?! There is allot of crazy people out there! I tought something happened to you!"
"Well I'm fine now mom right? When you going to understand that I'm 18 and not 10?"
"You are still living under my roof!"
"Don't worry.. not for long."
My mom gave me a look. She was kind of upsat but sad.
I felt bad for a little bit.. I know she is just worrying.
But she need to let go sometimes.
I closed the door of my room and set on my bad.
The letter was on my desk and I stared at him for a while.
I was thinking what would happen if I will open it?..
My life is going to change?.. or maybe not.
Chris did something... That's for sure.
He killed himself for a reason.. reason that I can't understand.. but maybe if I will open it I can understand.
The knowing that I can know that truth.. what I asked for all this time..
And I don't even wants to know her.
But I have to.
Chris told me why.. I can't hide forever..
No matter what is in there.. I have to deal with that.
I took the latter..
"For Alison Loren"
There was nothing behind the latter.
I started to open the latter really slowly..
And than I took off the paper inside.
Now I'm not sure I can be the same after that.
"Alison.
If you opened that latter.. I want you to know that no matter what.. i will always love you.
I remember that day when j realized that I love you..
It's was on our first date.. you was wearing that blue gorgeous dress.. you don't really love dress..
I'm sorry.. for what I did to you..
I know you hate me for that..
But I had to do that.. this world can't have a person like me..
And I had to do that to protect you.
Protect you from the problems I made..
I put you I'm so much danger.. so I had to do this for you.
You want to know why.. but I guess that's the time to tell you the truth.
Few months before I met you..  I had another girlfriend.. I didn't loved her.
Her name was Linda.
We was together for a while.. and one day she gave me The answer for why she really was with me.
She just wanted to have a baby because she don't wants to be alone.
She got pregnant and..she forgot to tell me the truth about her parents.
Her dad was in a mafia Gang.
When I was fighting with her about the pregnancy.. and when I left her.. she told her dad I raped her.
One day I got in the mail a picture of me and you..
They wanted to kill you.. or to hurt you.
I can't deal with the tought of you dead.
I realized that the only thing who can possibly help is if I just will be gone.
Alison..
I want you to know that I live you so much.. I never thought I could love someone like I love you.
I'm sorry.
Please tell me you will move on.. go the the college as you wanted.. and find some else who can make you happy.
That's what I want.
I want you to move on.
This number can helps you to have a new start.
Promise me you will just move on.
I hope to see you on day.
I love you Alison Loren.
Chris."
There is no words.. besides pain..
I didn't even cried.. I guess I'm done with crying.
The truth is painful.
I didn't sleep.. or eat for few days..
I don't know how to react.
What I'm supposed to so now?
How I'm moving on?
I have to move on.