As soon as we got in a clear hallway I pretty much pounced on Sean. I rushed him into the wall and kissed him with everything I've ever felt over the past three years. He took a minute, before responding to my "surprising" reaction. He put his hands on my booty like I liked it and pulled my closer.
He dragged his tongue teasingly over my bottom lip. He slid his hands under my dress earning a moan from me. What he was doing was torture; I haven't slept with anyone since we broke up so I'm long over due. Right when he was about to slide them off he pulled back saying "Wait, Ne we can't do this. I thought I could, but I just can't."
"Why not?" I asked my expression dimmed.
"You have a man. I don't wanna do what I did to you again to him. I mean what does that even say about me I'm over here trying to get you back, but in the wrong way." He pulled back from me completely and stuffed his hands in his pockets.
I sighed and put my head down. He's right.
"What am I even doing here?" I turned to leave, but he stopped me by taking my hand.
"Hey don't be like that Ne. If anything we needed this moment to happen. Look you know that I miss you and I want you, but you don't want me. I can at lease try and accept the fact that you don't want me instead of trying to get you to be with me. If you want me, let me know. Cause I don't wanna wait for you to make your mind too late."
{I'm listening to Still miss you by Sinead Harnett. This was sad}
He gave me a small smile, before leaving me int the hallway. Sad part is as he turned the corner the words I've been meaning to say for three years finally left my mouth.
"I still miss you."
-=-
I got in my car with tears streaming down my face. I like drake a lot, but I'm in love with Sean. Maybe I do need to let him go and focus on the fresh thing I have with Drake. But the only thing Sean ever did to hurt me was cheat on me. Although if I did try and date him again in the back of my mind I'd relive the memory of him cheating on me. I don't think I have to w- That's a lie I thought that I didn't have to worry about that with Sean, but it still happened.
"Fuck!" I yelled before I saw a pair of headlights heading straight for me.
