Changing Carter WATTY AWARDS 2012

Hope and Faith work hand in hand

Turns out Jakes phone had just died, he was taking a walk. "Carter lets go see Summer," he said.

As we made out way to the hospital we talked about out exsperience in the tornado. I honestly can't believe we survived.What should have been a 15 minute walked turned into a half hour walk, I guess neither of us were in a big hurry. I zoned out a couple of times I couldnt help but think about my mom. "There's a snake" Jake said. "What where!" he smiled and shook his head, " you were zoning out I just got your attention." he laughed. "Not funny,"

We finally reached the hospital. "You go on I will meet you there I am going to stop by my moms," I said as he began to open Summers door. "Hi Dr. Reed, how are you?" I asked. "Verry good Carter, and so is your mom, we had to give her more medicine, but she has been waking up and talking some, she even was able to drink water on her own." My face lite up in a big smile. For once a reasurance that my mom was going to be okay, it felt good. As I walked into my moms room she was watching televsion. "Mom?" I said hesitinely. "Carter hunny, come here," she said giving me a big hug. "I was really worried about you, is your arm ok?" Why wouldn't she be more conceirend with her health. "I am fine and no I was worried about you." My mom looked a million times better, I couldn't believe it. The color was back in her face, her hands felt normal, and she was smiling, this was a gift from God."I have so much to tell you, I don't know where to begin." I think I probably rambeled on till Jake knocked on the door. "Mom this is Jake." I said. "I figured when I was in the coma I could hear everything you said, I just couldn't answer." I was shocked. Jake ran over to shake her hand. "I don't want to steal you away but Summer is about to go into surgry she wants you."

"Go sweetie I will be fine, " I nodded knowing I would tell her later about that whole event. " Love you mom." "Love you too." the minute we got out the door Jake grabbed my hand "Run" he said.. "She is about to go in for surgery that think she has a tumor, she wants you." This could not be happening this life I am living is a nightmare. "You mean cancer?" I said still running , and he nodded, "She doesn't know."

"Carter!" Summer yelled I had to be strong for this little girl I had to hide my emotions, "You are going to be ok." I said trying to smile. "Its just a little thing they have to do after the car crash." Jake said softly. Jake and I were standing on either side of the bed when her father and doctor walked in. "You ready Summer?" asked her father. Summer motioned us to give her ahug. tears filled my eyes as the little girl was pushed in her bed going around the corrnor, just like my mother had.

I could tell that Jake was nervous as well. Which came to a suprise to me since he had been so strong through out the nightmare that we seemed to be living.

"Now what," in a tone less sigh he said. I shook my head trying so hard to not cry. He walked up to me wrapping his arms around me and I couldn't keep it in.

"She will be okay Carter" he said kissing my forhead, "just can't loose faith."

"There you two are," my dad said, " We need to go see your mom,"

Jake had to head home his parents who hadn't seen much of him latley want to bond so I promised the minuete Summer was out that I would call him.

"Carter we should talk ," dad said but his tone was shakey which made my heart speed up.

"You know Dr. Reed said that your moms cancer was gone, they got her X-rays back this morning," dad begain to tear up.

"The cancer has spread, bad and they don't know what they can do, your mother knows," I cut him off, "Wha he said she would live, that she would be fine, that we would be a family at home happy again!" I found my self crying harder than I ever have, "I know hunny I know, but we have to be strong for your mom, she wants us to be happy." I felt like a little kid crying in daddies arms not knowing what to do. "They want to move her to the hospice," he said. "What! They are just going to give up on her, as if there is nothing left to do!"

"Carter they have tried everything, they came to me a few days ago and, "

"Wait you have known that this would happen, I can't believe you dad, mom is dying and you hide it from me how"

"Carter it was what was best for you," he looked mad

"Oh hiding the fact that my mother your wife is dying, I would have spent more time with her," I was crying so hard I had to sit down at this point," I'm sorry dad, I just I...dont...want to ..loose mom" I began gasping for air.

"I am going to go talk to the doctors , your mom is asleep, you should probably call Jake and tell him I told you," he said, "What do you mean call Jake and tell him you told me, tell me you didnt tell him but not me."

" Carter I needed him to keep an eye on you," I Just walked away.

tears flooding my eyes I punched in Jakes number, "hey cart.." I stoped him "I cant believe you! You knew and you didnt tell me!" I yelled at my phone, "Carter your dad made me promise,"

"Oh so thats ok my mom is dying and your ok not telling me!""Your dad asked me to take you to lunch and get your mind off of things yesterday but I didn't have the heart to tell you,"

I couldn't believe my ears "Wait I'm sorry that my dad has to ask you to take me any where, I am your girlfriend Jake you don't keep secrets I can't believe you have known what for over a week!"

"Carter" he said "Save it"

I slamed my phone and headed for the garend. I couldn't take it any more, why me why my mom, I really wanted to punch the nearest thing. I found a cornor of the hospital just sat down and started crying. How could Jake hide the news of my mother.