[kim namjoon pov.]
i woke up and blinked the sticky sand away that was left from my tears. i stood up, leaving the boring white covers in its messy state.
my whole body was aching and my head was spinning. i felt sore and groaned a little in pain. i went to the bathroom, looking at myself in the mirror, probably way too long.
i didn't see me. i saw an empty shell, filling itself with love for anyone but itself. i saw dark shadows under red swollen eyes, i saw an uneven face, i saw pimples that where tiny but stood out huge for me.
i functioned for the world, not for me. i brushed my teeth. my teeth, that were too yellow for my liking. i took a quick, cold shower, observing my body. my body, that was too badly proportioned for my liking.
after that, i dressed myself, not even thinking about what would make me look good. who would have been impressed anyway?
i ate nothing, if i did i would have been unsatisfied the whole day.
i went to school, for another tiring day of being unnoticeable in the masses of art students.
art students that had plans, unlike me.
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SELF-LOVE ↯ NAMJIN
Fanfictioni'm learning how to love myself. in which namjoon is desperate to find a little bit of love for himself, and it all seems to work out when a boy full of confidence walks into his life like the door is wide open.
