thief {f.w}

chapter 10

*rivers pov*

after an exhausting day with wyatt and the gang, i decide to have a self-care evening. i wash my hair and paint my nails.
harper helps me put on a face mask and we sit sipping orange juice out of wine glasses, giggling.

"so, do you know exactly what you're going to do now?" harper asks, blowing on her nails to dry them.
"do with what?" i ask
"um jaeden? are you two official yet?" she asks as if it's obvious
"well, no-"
"do you want to be a "thing"?" She asks and i feel my face heat up.
i don't answer.
"oh" she says quietly. "you're still not over finn?"
i shrug, "i don't know how i feel" i realise i probably shouldn't have said that out loud.
"oh! you don't know how you feel? well then it's time for the-"
"dont!!"
"too late!! the feelings train!!" she jumps up, dragging me up with her.
she turns round and i reluctantly place my hands on her shoulders.
she marches round, "ok! next stop is rivers feelings! choo choo!!" she says loudly.
"harper, shutup" i say laughing.

"no!! ok so how do you feel river, just day what comes to your mind first, that's what i do, captain wilson!!"
"i don't think train drivers are called captains harper" i laugh and she giggles,
"they are on my train. now, stop this off track chit chat, time for feelings!!"
"ok ok, i don't know what to do" i say as she continues to make train noises around the room.
"you'll have to be more specific, miss river" she says,
"i don't know how i feel, how is it possible to like to guys at once?" i say but it comes out as a croak, i almost cry. harper stops.
"i don't think you like two guys river" she says, spinning round to face me.
"maybe you like finn still, maybe you're trying to use jaeden as a cover up because finn has daisy. maybe you're trying to tell yourself you like jaeden because you want to move on. just like finn has." She says and i stare at her in shock.
"no..." i say quietly, "jaeden is so sweet of course i like him"
"maybe" she says.

"now miss harper, time for your feelings" i say, spinning round so she giggles.
"i don't have any sad feelings" she says and i shrug
"so? they can be any feelings" i say and she laughs
"well, i feel happy because jack is so lovely to me. um, adele concert is coming up soon so im excited for that with you girls. you were nominated for an award so that made me happy, um i get to live with you, that's great because you're my bestfriend. the one thing that is making me sad is that you're sad because you're confused. but it'll be ok" she says and i smile sadly at her.
"ok but this was supposed to be your feelings train, everything wasn't about you. well apart from jack but that's it"
"but all those things add to my feelings, so it is really" she says before jumping on the chair.
"im happy that you're happy harp, but don't worry about me"
"oh im sorry, are you basically my sister? yes. therefore i shall carry on worrying until you're 100% happy. got it?" she says laughing and i nod.
"ok fine" i say, laughing with her.

*finns pov*

a little bird told me that jaeden and river were on a date. so i take daisy on a date. i go to the simple cafe downtown, there are basic flowers in the middle of the table and she sits there giggling.

i do like her, and she is pretty.

this date was probably better than jaedens and rivers.

"so, how was your weekend with lola?" i ask her and she smiles sweetly.
"it was good! we went shopping around new york and just had a great time" she says, sipping her juice delicately.
"glad you had fun" i say, smiling at her.

"so, what do you want to do after lunch?" i ask
"well, there's a sale on downtown so maybe we could have a look there" she says, smiling at me.
"of course" i say.

we make our way to the mall where we find jack.
"hi finn" he says, greeting me. i haven't really spoken to jack that much.
"hello jack. how are you?" i ask and he nods.
"im good. is this daisy?" he asks, gesturing towards her. she was looking at shoes.
"yep" i say and he smiles.
"happy for you dude" he says half heartedly.

"i saw your pictures on instagram with the others, i heard you all went out" i say, swallowing hard.
he doesn't look me in the face, "hm? oh yeah, we wen out to take wyatt to some meet and greet thing" he says and i feel a pang of sadness. they didn't invite me, but what did i expect really
"did you have fun?" i ask and he nods.
"good" i force out before walking over to daisy who had picked up a pair of expensive shoes. so much for a sale.

we finish shopping and she's tired so she wants to go home. i drop her off and walk the rest of the way home. it gives me time to think.

if i want to stop feeling so left out, i should just make new friends. or apologise to my old ones. i feel like that's a last resort, as last time i tried to apologise, i upset river more. but that doesn't mean i can't talk to anyone else.
ill talk to sadie first, i haven't done nothing to her, i won't even have to apologise.
it's only 3:30pm so maybe she's free.

                          kitchen sink💘
                                    hey sads, are you free?

i get a text back almost immediately

yeah, is everything ok?
                            
  yeah i was just wondering if you wanted to hang out?

now? 
                                                             yep 🙂
ok, ill meet you by the park 🙃

i meet her there and she's all smiley.

"hello finn! long time" she says and i laugh
"yeah, im kinda missing you all" i say sighing and she smiles at me
"so why don't you just come and hang out with us?" she says and i look at her confused.
"because i thought that none of you wanted to hang out with me anymore"
"well, maybe you upset someone a couple months ago, but im sure everyone will be ok with you. i mean, finn, you're family, we've grown up together" she says and i smile.
"i suppose. but im sure river will still be sad" i say, "im sad and it was partially my fault" i add quietly.
"well then that's something you can both sort out together isn't it?" sadie says and i nod.
"we really wouldn't had invited to our get together the other week if we didn't want to hang, would we?" she laughs.
"but yesterday you went out without me" i say, i now realise how incredibly whiny i sound.

ugh im so lonely
i miss river
they're leaving me out
blah blah blah
get a grip finn for god sake.

"well that was originally for wyatt, it wasn't something we all planned to do" she laughs.
"lighten up finn" she says and i shake off this whiny mood.
"ok, so do you think i should speak to millie next? or river?" i ask and she shrugs.
"who ever you think" she says.

i hang with sadie all evening and we mess about in the park. her mom comes to pick us up, i thank her and give sadie a quick hug goodbye.
"bye sads, thank you" i say
"anytime finnigan" she replies before her mom drives off.

when i get in, nick is sitting on the floor.
"nick?" i call him and he scrambles paper together, shoving it under the chairs. failing miserably to be casual.
"hey- hey finn, how are you?" he asks and i walk beside him, grabbing the sheets from under the couch.
"fine? nick were you reading all my music notes??" i ask him, shocked but more hurt the fact that he went through the basement to find them. these were personal.
"well...finn they're really good. look im sorry don't be sad"
"don't be sad? these are so meaningful nick! you went snooping in the basement"
"after i heard your song i had to look for more. finn you are so talented when it comes to song writing" he says and i can't help but smiles.
"thats probably the nicest thing you've ever said to me" i say.
"yeah but i still dislike you all the same" he says jokily.
i smile.
"they are really good though box man. who knew you had feelings?" he jokes, messing up my hair. 

boy do i have feelings nick.

~word count 1494~
i don't know what happened in this chapter tbh i kind of just went along with it lmao
still i hope you enjoy.
over and out,
-L💛