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The Delectation

For the next few days I didn't leave my bed. Calling in sick from work and not attending lectures, choosing to wallow in my thoughts and comfort my ego with food and films. The whole time, recollecting the activities of the other night.

You shouldn't have kissed him.

You did this to yourself.

He's getting married, what were you thinking?!

I let my inner-self vent - agreeing with her. What was I trying to achieve by kissing him?! He's my professor for goodness sake! Despite having feelings of regret, one thing did stand out to me. He never pulled away. He could have stopped me but he didn't. Instead he drew me in and kissed me back. Why?

My thoughts dispersed from the sound of my phone bleeping. Looking at the screen I saw the tenth message from my mother, asking how I was. Having only sent her one text the day after the charity function, I knew she was concerned. It's not often I don't respond to my mothers calls and texts but I just wanted to be left alone. Damien had bruised my ego and left me confused, something I wasn't taking so well. How could he just kiss me back then rush off to his fiancé?! Am I right to be pissed or was I overthinking things?

Who knows.

My phone bleeped once more, this time from an email alert.

Miss Blix,

May I ask why you haven't been attending lectures these past few days? I'm sure you don't want to be set back from the reading and assignments you have.

Professor.

My stomach formed a knot and I exhaled sharply.

Wait. Why is he talking as if nothing happened this past weekend?

Agreeing with myself I decided to respond as if nothing had happened also. Two can play that game!

Professor,

I have been sick and thought it best to stay home and recover. I will catch up with any reading material and assignments on the online portal.

Lina.

That should shut him up! My phone bleeped again within minutes and I opened up the email eagerly.

Lina,

Get well soon.

Professor.

I read the email in disbelief.

Is that it?!

I refreshed my emails expecting to see another that gave more than just three words, but nothing came in.

What an ass!

I got up from my bed, choosing to stop my pity party. If he was going to carry on like nothing happened then so was I. It was just a kiss, I don't know why I took it seriously anyway. He's got a fiancé, this wasn't going to go anywhere even if I wanted it to.

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"Where are you off to?" I looked up from my laptop, seeing Kelsey in a short black dress, makeup done and heels on.

"Date with Cole." She grinned and I cooed.

"Third one already? You two are adorable."

"We're just taking it slow, I don't even know what this is yet." Her shoulders shrugged and I admired her innocence. I hadn't yet caught her up on the kiss with Damien, I decided I'd fill her in when I made sense of things myself.