The struggle of being apart of the LGBTQIA+ community

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Today is Independence Day for America and that's just another day for me and some of my white friends were like why and I said because I'm not from here, I was brought here to do all of the work that nobody else wanted to do. So my Independence Day was on June 19th. It was the day when the slaves in the south got the heads up that hey you've been free for x amount of days and didn't know it.

But I'm not here to talk about slavery. We all already hear about it way too much or for some of you way to little 👀 but that isn't any of my business.

Today I went to the waterpark and it was okay. My dysphoria kicked in real hard, like why couldn't I have a flat chest and walk around with no shirt on and bra? It can get really hot in Washington when it wants to...lol.

During that time at the waterpark I've also made up my mind about what I'm going to do about transitioning. I've been thinking about it for a while because it's like what do I need to do so I'm okay but to also not piss my mom off because she really wanted a girl and that didn't happen with me.

I need a haircut. It's something I've always wanted but my mom would always be like no until one day she told me when I turned 18 I could do it, so on my 18th birthday best believe that's the first thing I'm doing is getting a haircut

I want a binder and a STP and everything else that a trans person might need. All of the essentials

And this is just stuff that's happening on my birthday.

I need for my name to be changed by the time I graduate. I had to think long and hard about this one because I know my mom is going to be pissed off about it but I just don't want my birth name on my high school diploma.

I need testosterone in my body, I know that but I don't know if I can do it when I'm in high school. I might just wait until I get into college. My name change is already going to piss my mom off enough.

Top surgery somewhere down the line in Florida with doctor somebody. I don't know what his name is but people say he's a really good doctor and it gives me an excuse to go to Disney World and universal.

Bottom surgery. It's something that has always lingered in my mind. I know I want it but do I want it to be more developed. Should I wait for something to happen before getting it done? It's so hard to look into the future because like what will I be doing when I'm 25 or hell even at 21. Okay, I'm 16 this year so I'll give them 9 years. In 9 years when I'm 25 I'll get bottom surgery with the options that they have.

Today wasn't anything special, the day still isn't over because we still need to see the fireworks lol.

Happy Fourth of July everyone 🇺🇸