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When we arrived at home Hoseok sat on the couch and started to use his phone. Social Media was already freaking out because of her death. Everyone knew. Everyone wanted to talk about it. And create discussions. When I say that the Human race is over, I am never joking. Hoseok was scrolling on Twitter and saw some comments. People saying that Hoseok wasn't there to support her. That he should've been with her at the time. That he should be the one dead instead of her. As I put my stuff on the balcony, I looked at Hoseok. He was crying. Crying because he thinks that, this was the truth. That he killed her. That if he was living with his mother this wouldn't have happened. Not with his brother. Not his sister. His expression went from sad to mad. He turned his fine off and threw it on the floor, carpet. He than just cried a little more and entered the restroom. I went behind him and spanked the bathroom's door.

- Hoseok if you do what I am thinking it won't make anyone happier: I said still spanking the door

- Look, I won't do anything..just want to take a shower: Hoseok said

- Unlock the door then..I am scared Hoseok: I said

- I know..: Hoseok said

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Hoseok went out of the restroom with sleeveless shits. He didn't cut himself now. I left a sigh of relief and followed him.

- Are you ok?: I asked behind the door

- No: Hoseok said sitting on the bed looking at the window

- I know, none of us are: I said: But you're the most affected here..do you need something?

- Why are you being so fucking nice to me? The other member don't give a damn!: Hoseok said

- I care because..because you're one of us: I said trying my best not to lie: I am doing this for army, and I care about you Hoseok

- Army already hates me, if I die they wouldn't care: Hoseok said and sighed

- I'll tell you the fucking true Hoseok: I said leaving a sigh of pain: I am holding this since we meet, you know..I like, actually, like is a weak word..I love you Hoseok. More than I ever loved someone, when you kissed my cheek, or when I looked at you, I just wanted to hold you for me and wanted to protect you from all struggles and worries you would have. You are nice, cute, and I love you. You're the one who took me out of the dead end. Now you're in it, I'll do anything to take you out of there ok?!: I said and looked down blushing a bit

Hoseok didn't said a word. He just stayed quiet. I think the shook was too much. He held my hand and squeezed it. When I looked back at him he was crying again. I just wiped his tears and held my sadness....

- I know you wouldn't reply the same way, and it's ok, i can't force y...: I was interrupted by Hoseok

- I love you too hyung: Hoseok said bringing me closer to him

He made our noses touch at first. And smiled at my red and embarrassed expression. He looked to the left. And then right. Then at me

- You're cute when you're embarrassed: Hoseok said, and laughed

- Uuuhm..: I started to look him in the eyes

- Come on: Hoseok pulled me closer

Our lips sealed together. His lips were really warm and soft like cotton. His hands were holding my head against his. He looked desperate. "cute" I thought while still kissing him. I knew how he was feeling, sad, depressed, and all. But, I want to help him. I am not saying this to keep him for myself. I love him, so much to express. He has no idea. We backed up to get our breath back.

- Why..why did you kiss me now.?: I asked looking at him

- 'cause I love you Yoongi: Hoseok said, faking a smile

- Why are you faking a smile again?: I asked him

- Because I wanna be happy but what happened today wasn't erased: A tear fell from his eye but he continued on smiling

- I understand: I said hugging him: If you don't, or can't, smile, it's ok, don't do it then

- Thank you..I love you: Hoseok said

- I love you too Hoseok: I said

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We went out of Hoseok's room and meet the other boys in the kitchen. They all had the same expression: Worried.

- I'm okay..I guess: Hoseok said: Calmer than before..: Hoseok looked at me

- Ok..let's eat then, you have to rest Hoseok: Jin said standing from the chair and started to make the food

- I have to finish the dance and the mixtape hyung!: Hoseok said sitting on the chair

- Oh no you will not: I said: You'll go to sleep when you finish here

- I hate all of you: Hoseok said scratching the back of his head

- I know you love us: Namjoon said

- What's happening?: Jimin went out of the restroom without his shirt, just with boxers

- Uhm, Jimin..?: Hoseok pointed out: You are Almost-Naked

- What..: Jimin looked down and realized: S-Sorry hyungs..I forgot!

- Just go!: I said covering my eyes

- Sorryyyy: Jimin yelled

- Awkward: Namjoon said: Hoseok, you sure you're ok?

- Yes! Stop worrying so much about me: Hoseok said smiling

This time it was a real smile

- I am happy that you are happy: Me and Namjoon said

- Uh: Hoseok laughed: Wait, where are the others?

- Outside, they wanted to wait for the both of you to get out: Namjoon said and winked at Me

- Haha, funny, tell them to get back inside: I said almost killing Namjoon with my eyes

- Ok..geez he scares me: Namjoon said the second part to Hoseok and went outside

- I heard by the way: I said turning around and looking at Hoseok

- Uhm: Hoseok laughed again: Oh my god, it is the third time I am saying this but I love you Yoongi

- Say it whenever you want: I gave him a short kiss and smiled to him

- Uhm, hyungs...?

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