You make me believe in love - A Niall Horan Fanfic.<3

Can i let him go through with it?

Nialls POV :

Laurens face looked blan and upset when i told her that the transplant was on tuesday,only two days away. She just stared at me with a wide eyed smile. "Are you shore" She trembles. On monday morning mum walked down to the hospital to finalize the descion Lauren begged to come but she needed to rest for the transplant on tuesday. The doctors all acted like they were proud of me or had some brand new respect because of my bravery. Doctor mosby always smiles at me and squints her eyes when she stares   me in the eyes.  When i came home Lauren was strooling around the house cleaning like a mad woman. Mums face let up and gave me a look as if to say 'She's the child i never had'. "Someones been busy" I smile. She nods  her head then her face turns white and  she leans on the side. "Are you ok babe" Mum asks. Lauren doesn't speak she just groans uncontrolabley. We run her upstairs to her bed and lay her down so she can catch her breath. 

The next day finally comes and i was actually excited On the other hand Lauren wasn't. She had been up all night puking with nerves and bent over in pain. I tried to calm her down but i knew the weight i was laying on her shoulders,i was not going to let her wait years for one at the price of her death. Mother ran into my room with a suitcase full of walm clothes,underwear,dvds&video games for my 3 day stay whilst i settled down after the operation. Lauren was still in bed her face as white as snow,and her eyes blood shot from her tears. Mum helped her out of bed but as soon as Lauren was on her feet she was laid on the floor again but this time it wasn't the same. Her face was turing blue,her body was shaking,her eyes were rolling around like a carrosel. Mum tried to touch her but her skin felt like lava. We didn't know what to do until we realised we needed the ambulance. The came as quick as they could and rushed her back to the same ward she stayed in before and but her in the room i was going to be in. After a few hours of medecine drips,inhaulers,and hourly pressure point checks we could finally see her. She wasn't as blue and had calmed down a lot. We weren't supposed to make her talk so i just laid down next to her and held as tightly as i could. A small icy tear drop fell from her eye and rolled down her cheek onto my shoulder. We both still didn't speak i just held her hand and laid. Mum was with the doctor going through the side affects of the transplant. But nothing any doctor said would stop me from doing this,i couldn't bare to see her suffer like this everyday. A broad smartly dress doctor  strools in with the same smile they all gave me,but i didn't return. He talked me through the side affects as well but my ears went muffled the only thing  i could think of is her. Then,as i snap out of my daze i realise its time. I stand up and try to walk away leaving Lauren but she tugs on my hand and shakes her head pleading with all her heart. "Please,dont" She cries. But i just continue walking. I knew i was doing the right thing.

A few minutes later they walked into a room to change into a rather cover gown and laid me down on the bed. "Ok. Now we are going to need to inject this medecine into you so you will dooze off and wont feel a thing ok?" A female nurse asks in a timid gentle voice. I fridgedly nod my head and slowly feel myself drift into a world of whiteness. Everything was bright but not colourfull just white. I could her noises around me until moments later it slowly began to fade then the whiteness began to fade to and i was gone,deep in sleep. When i woke up i was in the same room as Lauren,she was laid there asleep and there were many doctors around me waiting for me to awake. As soon as they did they all began to  pounder around me offer food,drinks,antibiotics&Change of clothes. To each i reply no thankyou. They remove the white tube they had straped to my hand to put me to sleep and one by one walked away. I laid on my back facing the ceiling and then suddenly thought to myself,what would i be doing right now if this hadn't had happend? If i hadn't ever met lauren? But i would never of course wish it to be true,it was just curiousosity. Then the sound of Lauren snapped me out of the deep thought i was tranced in. Her eyes were still blood shoot from tears and her face was still white from pain. But i smiled,but right there right then. I knew it was going to be fine. "Did it hurt?" She trembles. I smile and shake my head,her eyes fill with a small glance of joy but then it fades back into the grey colour they were before.   I Lean over on my side to get cover and groaned in discomfort. "Look at what i've done to you" She whispers shaking her head and violently stratching her eyes. Before i can ashore her the doors slam open and in strolls and very excited looking,Bertie,Sinead&Dayna. They had balloons flowers chocolates and various other gifts. "Lauren!" Sinead excitedly screams. We all roll our eyes at the annoying level of height pitchness in her voice. "She needs to rest so dont be to....you know" I grumble as Dayna and Bertie hug me gently. "Im her best friend" She rudely snaps. "So are we" Bertie points to me&Dayna. "Ok". We all sit and talk for hours but Lauren doesn't say a word she just lays there crying i try to cheer up but all i want to do it hold her. "Lauren are you excited?" Bertie asks dipping into the box of choclates he had in fact bought for her. Lauren sits there in silence for a second there turns on her side facing to us. "No,im not at all" She groans again pulling the covers over he body to stop her chills.

A few hours before the operation : 

Laurens POV :

As the doctor informed of why i was feeling this way and what was going on i began to feel more nervous for Niall. Then they take me into my room and i lay there for ages until Niall was allowed in,but he didn't come in straight away. It was like he was hesitating whether he wanted to be anywhere near me or not. Then as soon as he came he ran straight into my arms and shed a few beautiful tears. He tells me about how he apparently 'isn't worried at all' about the operation' but the sorrow and fear in his eyes tell another story. But then the doctors walk in with his mum ruining my chances of talking him out of it. He slowly strolls out leaving my grasp. As soon as he leaves i try to calm myself but the fear of something happening to him was to strong. As the doors close i lay silent on my bed for a second whilst i try to catch my breathe but i slowly begin panting and my body feels as its lifting above me and punching me violently in the chest. I scream with the pain and roll around repetitively trying to stop the pain but it will never leave. I  suddenly feel my hands wobble beyond my control and realise im having a fit again i scream Nialls name but he doesn't come. Nobody comes,i just let the power of my body control me.Suddenly many doctors run in with drips and blankets. They not me out be giving me an injection. After a while Niall and the others appear after him operation. I dont tell them though,i ignore them. I'd rather just lay and swallow my thoughts. Because i know theres i can do to stop him now.

Tomorrow is my operation and Niall gets to come with right down the last second where they wheel me into the operation room and do there thing. The worry began to kick in now,and the thought that Niall cared so much to risk his light and doing a few things for me. Well,it makes me change my idea on love interily.