Not about angels

Chapter 8: Notes

Erin's P.O.V

As soon as she sent that message to me I panicked

I didn't know what to do besides run to her house but once I went to her house the ambulance and cop cars were already there

I ran to the back of the ambulance and saw Andy laying in a stretcher with a oxygen mask on her face completely unconscious and super pale

The Paramedic saw me and went to close the back doors and they drove off

I ran inside and went up to her room and saw it was completely clean and there were notes on her neatly made bed

I ran to them and sat on her bed and read them all one by one

Dear papa,
So I know this isn't what you wanted to come home to, and I'm so fucking sorry but I just can't take it any longer. I'm so fucking hurt and nothing can take the fucking pain away besides this, it got so damn bad that the only way I can actually escape is by drugs or drinking. I love you so fucking much and I know mum died from suicide and I know it messed you up when your the one who found her in the tub with all the pills in the tub, on the floor and in her hands, but I made sure your not the one that found me this time, I texted someone named Tony. He use to be nice but he turned into a coward real quick, just know I'm always gonna be with you and I'll be watching out for you, and again: I'm so fucking sorry and I love you so fucking much ♡

Love,
Andy (Angelica)

I flipped to the next page.

Dear Angel,
Hey brother.. It's been a while, I'm sorry that I never texted you back or helped you that much, I was in my own little world and I was being selfish. I didn't mean to hurt you or mum or papa, just know that when you get home your sis will be in a better place and looking over you. My head has been so fucked up lately and I didn't know what to do, I couldn't come to you because I knew you were dealing with your own demons but me I've been dealing with them for far too long and I couldn't handle them anymore, just know that I love you so so fucking much and I just couldn't handle being alive, I miss you and love you brother and I'm sorry I couldn't be strong enough ♡

Love,
Andy

Flipped to the next..

Dear Sabrina,
Look.. I know you hate me cause your popular and everything but once they found someone else to toy with your gonna be crying wishing I was alive and to come back to you, but guess what Rina? I'm not and why? Because of you and your slutty friends, you couldn't handle the truth but once they release your truth you'll be sorry. They will let you down so hard that you'll realize that I was the only true friend you have had before you bullied me to DEATH, you already released my truth out to everyone in the school, I bet that your gonna be sorry for everything you've done to me. Well I got to go, I have two more notes to write and I don't wanna waste my ink on someone useless because you don't care and you'll never care about anyone but yourself.

Love,
Your "bestfriend" Andy

Flipped the page again..

Dear Erin,
Hey.. You know I love you right? You saw me for me, you saw through my true colours and you didn't care, you are what everyone wishes in a Bestfriend. I can't believe I've done this to you, when I asked if you wanted to run away I meant it, like I wanted to go in another town, change our names and work and make money to buy the big house we live in and we would be so rich. I love you and I thank you for trying but I can't do this anymore you are so funny and so intelligent, don't let my suicide get in the way of your success cause I know that your doing good in all your classes. I'm so sorry Erin and I beg you to forgive me even though I don't deserve it, I didn't deserve you and I'm sorry that I couldn't be strong enough. I can't be here anymore and I can't handle this anymore. I love you so fucking much Erin ♡

Love,
Your bestfriend Andy ♡

Then I flipped to the very last page in tears on the floor.

Dear Tony,
You remember me? No? well I'm that girl that lived across from you for three years, those three years were the best years of my life, why? Cause you were in my life and you actually cared about me, you cared when I cried myself to sleep and you knew somehow and climbed in through my window to give me a kiss and cuddled me till I fell asleep, you cared when someone hurt me. But then you became so heartless so fast, I let you know my deepest secret then you go and tell Sabrina who told the whole school, you were always there for me and I was always there for you. I loved you Tony but you hurt me, you broke me even though we weren't dating. Bye, Frenchfry..

Love,
Andy.

I was full on crying on the floor holding all the notes that have tear stains on them from when Andy was writing them

I got up and grabbed Sabrina's and Tony's note then started walking to Danny's house in rage

I stormed in his house immediately seeing Tony covered in I think Andy's blood

I looked at him seeing his eyes were red and puffy from crying and he looked back into mine

I sniffed and started crying again,

"Erin, what are you doing in my house?" Danny asked me then I looked at him

"Don't worry asshole, I'm not staying" then pushed him away

"It's was your fault" I pointed my finger at Sabrina

"Uhh, excuse me?" She crossed her arms

"Are you deaf? I said it's all your fault she did this to herself"

She walked over to me,

"I didn't do shit, dyke. She did that herself, not me" she pushed me

"Oh yea? Well what the fuck is this?" I asked and pulled Andy's note out about her

"Listen, like I said: she did that herself now get the fuck out of this house"

I crumpled Sabrina's note and threw it at her then tried walking away but she grabbed my hair making me fall backwards

I shot back up then pushed her making her fall into the coffee table then I jumped over the table and started hitting her

"You. Fucking. Hurt. Her. You. Dumb. Bitch" I said hitting her between each word

Someone tried pulling me off her but I elbowed them still hitting her

I got off her seeing her holding her head crying and bleeding

I looked over at Tony and walked up to him pushing the note into his chest then left.