Not about angels

Chapter 11: The Talk

Andy's P.O.V

I looked out the window smiling as we passed a few trees

I'm finally out

We parked in my driveway and I looked over at Erin's mom

"Thank you Mrs.Jones" I smiled

"Your welcome, Walker"

I grabbed my bag and walked out shutting the car door

They waved at me whilst I was walking up the sidewalk that leads to my house and I waved back

Then they drove away,

I looked up at my house and walked up the steps then unlocked the door walking inside

I shut the door and tried swallowing the little lump in my throat

I walked up my steps and into my room and sighed seeing it was exactly how I left it

The bed was perfectly made the blinds were shut the room was clean and the bathroom was opened

I slowly made my way to the bathroom and saw some of my blood stained between the white tiles

I sighed and went to go grab bleach along with a towel and a bucket

Once I was done cleaning the bathroom I laid down letting out a long sigh

Then I heard someone knock at my door so I got up and quickly ran downstairs and opened the door

"What are you doing here?" I crossed my arms

"It's Friday, and it's 5" Tony's deep voice said

I looked at the clock and let a deep breath out moving out of the way letting him in,

He sat down at the kitchen isle whilst I went running upstairs to get my chemistry books and textbook

I went back downstairs and gave him the books

He opened one and started reading it

I turned around and grabbed some raspberries

"Would you like anything?" I asked looking in my fridge

He got up walking behind me and itched his neck then grabbed a Popsicle  

"How long have you had these for?"

"A week"

He shrugged and took it then took the wrapper off

He sat back down eating the popsicle and I shut the fridge grabbing the raspberries I wanted,

He kept reading as I plopped a few berries in my mouth

I grabbed my phone reading through some tweets whilst he wrote

What if I did actually killed myself? I don't think I would have but what if I did? I think I would have killed myself a second time to see the pain I put my papa through.

I looked up at Tony to see him staring at me again

"What are you thinking about, Walker?" He asked me lifting an eyebrow

I shut my phone off and looked down sighing plopping another Raspberry in my mouth

"Just, my papa, my mum"

"Where is your mum?"

"She.." She killed herself "I actually have no idea" I lied looking at him

"Your dad never told you about her?"

"Nope, every time I ask about her he changes the subject"

Tony looked over at the family photo but I wasn't in it,