youth | bts

12 | ama's

we walked into the arena and were led to our seats. front row. we all took a seat, in order from left to right: yoongi, jin, namjoon, jimin, hoseok, taehyung, me, jungkook.

the only reason i sat next to jungkook was because i was promised snacks that he had snuck in. "deal." i whispered and took a seat next to him.

a few other celebrities walked over to take pictures with us before the show started. we smiled for all of them, by then end of them all my neck was hurting from stretching over to be in them.

as soon a the lights dimmed we all got silent and watched the opening act.

the whole show seemed to go by quickly, by the time i had almost finished one of the bags of almonds jungkook had handed me, we were five acts away from our stage.

"share." jungkook whined, i smiled and pulled the bag in the opposite direction of him, making it harder to reach.

"they're mine now." i smiled, sticking my tongue out at him. he nodded over at taehyung who quickly took the bag from my hand and threw them over to jungkook. "traitor." i whispered and gently elbowed his side.

a few minutes later we were taken back stage. we all quickly changed into our stage outfits. the boys in their colorful clothes.

i slipped into an oversized white button up, a loose tie, and some skinny jeans. it was yoongi's original outfit, but he last minute decided to change.

"it's too big." i said, trying to button up one of my wrists.

"deal with it." yoongi mumbled and reached over to help me. i scrunched my nose at him and stood up.

we quickly ran over behind the curtain. namjoon, hoseok, and yoongi were all handed mics. jin, jungkook, taehyung, jimin and i all got the ones attached to our ears, a small piece of tape over the wire.

i fixed my hair and took a deep breath, a new level of anxiety i had never felt before rushed over me. "it's okay. alright? don't worry." jimin nodded, obviously noticing my nervousness.

he patted my cheeks and smiled, giving me a thumbs up. we all got into our positions as the lights went out. when the stage doors opened we kept our heads down.

the sound of jungkook's whistling told us when to start. since i was in the back for the first half i kept a straight face, preparing myself to moving to the front. i ran off the stage when taehyung and hoseok's part came on.

"it's ok. it's ok." i shook my head and said to myself.

like before, i ran out with the boys, running in between jungkook and taehyung.

i led the dance, smiling at the camera. "-dna." i said deeply, tapping my wrist twice with my fingers.

i panted slightly and took the few seconds i had on the ground to catch my breath. "i want it this love, i want it real love-" yoongi said, the crowd loudly rapping along with him.

once we got through the first three quarters of the song, i got into the line, kneeling on the ground in between jin and tae. i smiled at namjoon who looked back for a split second to give a reassuring nod, that i was doing good.

we did the dance break in sync and finished in our usual spots. the lights dimmed, we all walked forward on the stage and waved for a few moments at the fans. "thank you american music awards!" namjoon said into the microphone and led us all off the stage.

the crowd was going wild, even after we had left. i patted my face with a rag and took a swig is water. "that was nerve racking." i panted, shaking my head.

"definitely." jin said, taking the rest of my water i had offered him.

"good job. everyone did amazing." hoseok smiled brightly, barely out of breathe. how he managed i never knew.

"awesome work!" one of the interviewers from outside said, walking over to us, giving everyone high fives.

we thanked her and conversed again for a few minutes before walking over to the cars. we had declined the after party, so we could go back and do a vlive.

we all gathered into one of the boys rooms, jungkook was handed a phone on a tripod as he got the app opened.

"army!" the boys yelled once they realized it had started.

"did you guys see us? that was pretty cool, huh?" jimin laughed, taking the phone from guk. namjoon popped open a bottle of champagne. he started to pour cups for all for the legals, jungkook and i left out.

i rolled my eyes and took a sip from my vanilla milk, jungkook was handed a banana milk.

"ah look at the babies of the group drinking their milk!" jin laughed, pointing over at us, clapping his hands together.

"we're not of age yet! we're being legal!" i playfully yelled, throwing a pretzel at him.

the other boys laughed and took drinks from their cups, they went back to talking with the fans on the vlive. i tried to stick my head in a few times, but ended up getting my head pushed out by one the boys.

"yah!" i whispered, trying again. hoseok flattened his hand against the top of my head and pushed me out again, laughing softly.

"adults only."