youth | bts

15 | fanmeet

i rocked back and fourth, sighing softly. it was my
first fansign event, meaning we would be in a room with only about 40 fans. it was really nerve wracking.

i peeked my head out to try look out the door, but quickly got pulled back by a staff member, getting scolded quietly. "sorry." i mumbled and looked down.

"alright guys, are you ready?" sohee asked, looking around. we all said yes and filed out of the room, we walked up the stairs and on the stage, smiling to all of the cameras and waving.

"bang-" "tan! hello everyone we are bangtan sonyeondan." we all said in sync, bowing to the fans.

we talked a little bit with the fans and got right into signing 'love yourself' albums. the album came out months ago but because so many were still being sold we were able to hold fansigns continuously.

i took a seat near the end in between jungkook and taehyung. staff brought us out starbucks, individual orders. yoongi got an americano, taehyung got a macchiato, and i got a green tea frappe. i took a smal drink and set it down, looking around and messing with my sharpies.

"ani-ah!" i heard from the audience, i looked up and tried to find who yelled, "ani-ah! over here!" my eyes went up to the corner and i smiled brightly, putting a hand over my mouth in shock.

they had a huge camera that said ani's day on it, it was my very first fansite. i waved and smiled, bouncing my knees like a child, way too excited to focus on anything else.

the woman behind the camera gave me a thumbs up and a heart, i did the same back and smiled for a few more pictures, even doing some silly ones just to make her laugh, then turned my attention to the first fan that was making her way down the line.

as us three were waiting for her to make it to the end of the line, which was us, we ended up starting a game of sticks, i quickly was out when both of them decided to team up on me. "no fair." i mumbled and pushed my chair back so they could have more room to play.

when the girl moved infront of taehyung and i tapped his knee. taehyung apologized to the girl and smiled, asking for her name as he signed her album.

i mouthed with the song that was currently playing in the background, "so please just don't leave me" i sang softly in english, turning my head around to look at the huge banner of us hanging behind the table.

when she moved infront of me i turned back around and smiled down at her, "hello! what's your name?" i asked, leaning closer to hear.

"jisoo? pretty name. it suits you well." i smiled and quickly signed over the picture of me.

"oh! i got this for you, can i put it on?" she asked, pulling out a headband, it had a black band and two light pink fluff balls on each side, like ears.

"ah cute!" i smiled and nodded, clapping my hands together as i bent forward in my chair, she sat up on her knees and put them behind my ears, fixing the hair around it. "thank you." i said and held my hand out for a high five.

she happily hit it and frowned when the staff urged her to move to jungkook, "bye ani!" she waved and moved on her knees over to jungkook.

i looked over at yoongi who was communicating with the audience by mouthing to them, i laughed at how funny he looked and moved my head with my music.

twenty minutes later

i had necklaces around my neck, bracelets up my whole left arm, and stickers all over my cheeks, we all did actually. one boy brought me a huge teddy bear, i got so happy when he said it was for me.

i waved to the cameras and talked to whoever was yelling to talk to me. "ani do you like juice?"

"apple juice is my favorite."

i looked over at the girl that was finishing up with taehyung, i sat up straight and watched her and she scooted past me a straight to jungkook. i looked at her slightly confused and realized she intentionally skipped me.

i managed to put a fake smile on as i looked down at my hands, i played with my fingers awkwardly as i heard her and jungkook converse.

she was the last fan of the first half, so after that we would get a break to just play with the fans. my heart hurt though, even though it was only one fan it somehow effected me immensely.

when she left jungkook i watched her walk back to her seat, i avoided eye contact and moved my eyes back down when she faced me.

taehyung bent down to look at me as he smiled brightly, obviously trying to cheer me up. he took my hands and made me dance, earning a genuine smile from me.

"i'll even share my toy with you." he hummed and handed over a stretchy frog that he refused to let hoseok play with.

even though the memory would stay with me, for the sake of the fans and the boys i forced myself to push it to the back of my mind. i sighed and smiled, nodding and taking it from him. "thanks tae-"

"jungkook-ah, take this bag of snacks and go behind us, feed the last three pieces to your favorite members." jimin said into the microphone, earning a string of 'oooh's from the fans.

jungkook laughed and stood up, taking the bag, "to the other members that don't receive my banana chips, i still love you." he said into the microphone apologetically.

we were all forced to close our eyes and open our mouths. i tapped my feet and swiftly opened one eye to peek, he was placing a chip into namjoon's mouth.

"yeah!" namjoon yelled, pumping his fists.

i closed my eye when he got close, "i knew it." jimin said into the mic, obviously chewing something.

taehyung clapped his hands when he got the final chip, yoongi, jin, hoseok and i all opened our eyes, playfully angry.

jungkook walked behind me and held a chip infront of my lips. i quickly took it with my teeth and smiled, doing a celebratory dance.

"jungkook! why didn't i get one?" jin yelled, standing up from his seat.

"i only had three!"

"you just gave one to ani!" jin said.

"hey don't drag me into this." i said quietly and laughed when i got shushed by both of them.

jin suddenly charged towards jungkook, jungkook held up his nerf gun that he had received from a fan and shot him square in the face.

my eyes widened as i covered my mouth, an accidental laugh escaping my lips. "you think it's funny?" jin asked, obviously playing around.

i quickly went under the table and crawled through the curtain hanging from it, earning a few "aw"s from the fans.

i crawled to jump off the stage and ran, jin still chasing jungkook and i. i bent down and ran to the top row, taking a seat next to a fan.

i smiled at his reaction and begged him to stay quiet, trying to blend into the audience.

"ani!" jin yelled.

"okay stop i'm sorry! it wasn't funny!"