Shattered (Namjin)

12

Chapter 12
Jin POV

ugh why am I so emotional? I am getting mad so easily. I get emotional every .03 seconds, and I am sassing Joon more than usual.

Oh my god! Were these pregnancy hormones? I wasn't that far along, maybe I'm losing my mind. I kind of feel bad, but at the same time my emotions are kind of valid. The way we walked into this relationship kind of makes it hard to know what could be Namjoon's next move.

At this point I can only think negatively. Namjoon and I are taking 2 big ass steps in our relationship. Whatever happened next could make us stronger or break us individually.

I am scared that history can repeat itself. It's hard to not think like that when I've been surrounded by toxic relationships. Having to witness Hoseok suffer with Baekhyun and my mom suffer with my dad, I fear the same for me.

I wish I could beat the crap out of that bitch though. She really tried to take my man! Ikr MY MAN. We weren't official, but we had a connection that was not hard to miss. At that point, everyone knew that I claimed Namjoon.

Jennie

Just thinking about her made me want to throw up... or did I really need to throw up?

I have not liked that girl since I first met her. There was something about her face that screams fake. Don't be fooled with her porcelain facade, she is not innocent. She's like an Annabelle doll.

My thoughts were interrupted when Joon walks out the bathroom with a towel wrapped dangerously low around his waist.

Joon wasn't buff, but his body was nicely toned and you could see a faint outline of abs. Right below them is his v line that led a trail to his treasure chest.

I couldn't help myself, he's just so sexy, making me hungry for-

"Jin!"

"What, huh?"

"I've been calling your name and it seems like you were looking right through me."

Ha you could say that again

"Jin!" Joon called again

"Huh"

"Why are you so distracted?" Then he followed my gaze and he plastered his million dollar smirk.

"Ahh I see what you're looking at."

I moved my gaze to his eyes and licked my lips.

"Well your wish is my command." Joon dropped his towel and started walking towards me slowly. The funny thing is, I forgot I was naked myself. I was lost in my thoughts that I forget to get ready.

This made things go a lot faster.

I was so ready for a piece of that monster, but I was still kind of upset and the physical pleasure would not solve it. I've never been a fan of make up sex. I'm not one to fuck then forget. Namjoon needs to understand how my feelings were hurt.

"Wait" I said as he was about to kiss me, putting my hand up to block him from coming any closer.

"What?"

"That won't make me happy."

"I don't know why you're upset all of a sudden, that was 3 years ago."

"I don't care how long ago it was, what if that happens again? We are too deep in this relationship. I don't want to be as broken as Hoseok." I say as I fight back tears.

"Ugh Jin, why would I put that ring on your finger if I wanted to break your heart?"

"I-I don't know, I just have a feeling something is going to happen." I said putting my head down.