As I opened the door and entered in the illuminated, white room, I was faced with a familiar male. Tyler. He was lying on the hospital bed, tubes all over his hands. He looked so peaceful, though I knew he was being tortured in his mind.
I walked closer and sat on a chair next to the bed. I grapped his hand and just admired him.
His hair was a light shade of brown. Actually, neither dark nor light, but, it was very cute. His lips were kind of chapped -understandable since he's passed out- but still red and pretty. I just noticed his tattoos. Josh had told me about them but the day I had bumped into him, he was wearing a jacket, so I didn't see them. Now I can see. Even though they're just plane lines, they're beautiful. Simple and beautiful...
Wait. What am I doing?!
I have a boyfriend.
If he finds out...
I immidiately let go of his hand. Fast, but gently, trying not to wake him up. Wich I did. Well I'm not sure if I woke him up but, oh well.
His eyes were opening slowly, trying to adapt to the light of the room.
"Who, who are you? And, where am I? Where's Josh?" he spoke confused.
"Um...I'm Y/n and you're in the hospital. Josh will be here in a sec."
"Oh, ok..." his voice was low and raspy
"Do I know you from somewher?"
"Actually, I bumped into you the other day... I was met with Josh here and we talked a little. He told me about you and I decided to stay here while he, um, went to the bathroom..."
"Oh yeah! I remember you. But, why were you here may I ask?"
"Um...I kinda passed out or something. Don't worry."
"I hope you're better." he said, a smile was formed on his lips, though he wasn't happy. I knew it.
"I am, thanks. I hope you get better too."
"Thanks... So, did they tell you why I was her?"
"Um, actually, yes... It's ok. I know what you're going through..."
He was now just staring at the ground. Tears were an inch away from falling away his eyes.
"Tyler, please don't cry... It's all gonna be ok."
"I know, it's just, the moment and the thoughts you know?" he said while wiping his eyes.
That moment, a knock on the door was heard. The door opened and Josh got in.
"Hey, Ty! You ok?" he asked.
"Yeah, better."
"Oh, Y/n, Eva went home. She told me to let you know that, if you want a ride, call her"
"Thanks Josh." I said and he gave me a smile and a nod, as for 'you're welcome'.
"Well, Tyler must be held here until tommorow so..."
"Oh, I'm staying here. No second thought and you can't chane my mind."
I don't know why I care about Tyler so much. I just do, you know? It feels like I've known him forever or something. I wanted to stay there and make sure that he was ok. Plus, I didn't want to go back at my place and face, you know who...
"Fine..." Josh said and sat on another chair, across Tyler's bed.
I kept looking between Tyler and Josh, trying to think of something to say and break that kind of akward silence that was surrounding us. I could see Josh looking back and forth between Tyler and I, a smile tugged on his lips. For some reason, I felt Tyler stare at me.
Was I wrong? No.
I turned my head to face him, and see him looking at me. We made eye contact and we both kept staring in eachother's eyes for a while... Then, a chuckle sounded from the other side. Josh of course...
I blushed and looked away, knowing that what I did and what I felt was wrong, but right, at the same time.
What I felt? I don't really know, but it's something that sends shivers down my spine and creates butterflies in my stomach. Make my heart race and my cheeks blush.
Why that felt wrong? Well, I have a boyfriend. Even if he's cheatting on me -and I know it- I can't leave him. I want to but I can't. Beacause of what he'll do of course. I've tried leaving him. Not a good idea...
Now, why was this feeling right? Beacause I know I do something that I want to. And I feel like, it's the right thing because I will be happier if I achieve it.
What to achieve? I know but I'm not sure if I'm correct...
I want to achieve that boy. The boy that gives me all those feels I mentioned earlier.
Tyler...
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Wow! that was a long chapter... 758 words without the a/n. Well, hope you enjoyed it!
Peace out, Irina <3
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