This Is Me (Demi Lovato Fanfic)

Chapter 13

*Tina's Pov*

We are at the doctors and I have Harry and my mom with me and I am kinda worried for some reason. I mean I have the two people I care about most with me besides Drakan. She couldn't come because she had physical therapy but that's okay. She needs to get better.

The doctor calls my name and he tells me to pull my pants down a little and pull my shirt up and that it might be a little cold. Harry wants a girl, but I want a boy. You would think I would be the one to want a girl, but I don't, I want a boy. But either way, we'll be happy. We start to hear it's heart beat and I look at Harry and he is in tears. I can tell he's happy.

The doctor says its a girl! Just what Harry wanted. I have this huge smile on my face that won't go away. I'm so happy. I love this man and we're having a child. I wouldn't rather do this with anyone but him.

*Demi's Pov*

After all I did, doing that for Drakan in the art room, she said that she loved me and that she couldn't wait either, but she would have to. Then she just walked out and I was crying. I didn't know what else to do. I get home and go straight to my room, crying, and bury my head in my pillow and just cry. I look up and Drakan is sitting in the chair with her knee propped up.

"Look I'm sorry, okay? I just don't know what I want anymore. I mean, all I know is that I want to be with you and that I want to get better." She told me.

"It's okay and I can take care of you?" I said.

"I have to do this on my own. I'm sorry. But thank you for all you have done. I found an apartment and I have just enough money saved up to rent it, and I won't be living here anymore." She said.

"What do you mean you found an apartment?! You are just going to leave me? Is that it?" I was kind of freaking out. I didn't want her to go.

"Yeah, I did find an apartment. Every time we are together, we either make out or have sex! I'm not leaving you, Demi."

"Just tell me why you are leaving! Just tell me the goddamn truth! I'm so fucking tired of being lied to all the time!" I yelled.

"Because I can't stand to look at you without wanting to hug or kiss you! Okay? Is that what you wanted to hear Demi?! Is it? It's hard for me to get better when I can't even focus on me without worrying about us!" She yelled back.

"I told you how I felt. Is that not good enough for you to see that I love you and care about you?"

"I know and I told you the same! It's not you, okay? It's me!"

"What do you mean it's you?"

"I'm not good, Demi! I'm not like how I used to be.. you know, loving and caring. I have been trying to get everybody to fix me, but I realized nobody can fix me but me." She said.

"What is there to fix Drakan?!"

"You haven't realized that I self harm? That I am bipolar? I have to do this on my own!"

"Wait.. you cut yourself?" I said quietly. I was shocked.

"Yeah, Demi. I cut myself. Nobody else knows but you and Tina."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"Cause I didn't know what you would think about me. I thought you would think differently of me."

"I would never judge you."

"I know.. but... I have to go. I already have my stuff packed and it's in the taxi. I love you."

"I love you too." We both are crying and she gets in the taxi and leaves.

*Drakan's Pov*

I know that I had to tell her sooner or later. I have kept it a secret this entire time without anybody knowing but Tina cause I don't trust anybody at my school. I left for a reason and that reason is that I have to get better and quit self harming. I know I hurt her after I promised I wouldn't. I have to focus on me and then we can work on us.