Carry me

Chapter 3

"I'm sorry WHAT?!" I yelled.

I didn't feel like you needed to know......I'm sorry" he said.

I can't believe he would do that to me. I can't think straight. I'm so pissed and sad and confused, I don't know what to feel or say right now. I just get up and leave. It's the only thing I can think to do.

"Liam wait"

Too late I'm already downstairs and heading to the door.

"Liam I'm sorry"

He sounded depressed, but he should have told me before hand that he was in a relationship.

It's been a couple of weeks since the incident. Ethan and I haven't talked since. He has tried to make conversation with me, but I just ignored him. I was hurt. He should have told me he had a bf. Why didn't he tell me? So many thoughts going through my head and all of them push me into a deeper depression. How could I have been so stupid. I shouldn't have done that. This is my fault. No. Stop thinking that. It's not my fault it's his. He decided to be a jerk and make me look stupid.

I'm pissed now, he had no right to make me look like a fool. I can't even stand to look at him right now. Even thinking about him gets me mad. Why would he do this to me. Tons of feelings are rushing through my body and I don't know which to feel.

I stopped going to school. Being in the same place as him is too much for me. I'm not sure if I will run off and cry or get violent or just scream at him. I have no control over any of my emotions right now. I should never have opened up to him. He basically stabbed me in the back because he didn't tell me he had a boyfriend back home. I'm just gonna stay home and listen to music in my room.

That turned out to be a bad decision because I wasn't aware that Ethan came over and walked in my room.

"Hey,... I know you don't want to talk to me, but I there were things I didn't get to say because you just stormed out of my house," Ethan said.

"No, you made me look like a fool. You made me feel stupid. I should never have opened up to you, you never cared about me. You were completely fake with me," I said very aggressively.

"That's not true at all," He yelled back, "I cared for you so much. You just didn't see me as a friend. I saw you as only a friend. That's why I didn't tell you. I figured because we were friends there was no reason to tell you I had a boyfriend,"

"You can not make this my fault. This is all your fault. I'm pissed at you, I don't want to see you anymore," I yelled, "Ok I'm done, get out,"

"I'm not done here," He said with a soft voice.

"Yes you are, now get out before I call the cops," I threatened.

"Fine," He said.

That's the last time that he and I have talked. I lost count of how many days have gone by. I feel bad in a way. I want to apologize, but he's the one who needs to. Granted I didn't allow him to do that. Is it bad that I miss him? I can't let this get to me, I have to let him explain himself. I'll call him and tell him to come over.

Ok one ring,... two rings,.... Three rings.

"What do you want,"

"I'm so sorry for the way I treated you I shouldn't have responded like that. I should have just let you speak and explain yourself,"

"Yes, you should have," He has no expression in his voice.

"I was mad, but I'm not anymore, so could you please come over and tell me what you were going to,"

No response.

"Ethan?"

The line went dead. Ugh I shouldn't have reacted like that. I lost the only friend I had. I started to cry. I'm not sure how long I cried, but I felt a hand on my back and I jumped. It was Ethan. I immediately hugged him.

"I'm so sorry, I won't react like that again, I promise," I cried into his shoulder.

"Liam, it's ok. We all say things we don't mean,"

"Are you sure?" I asked.

"Yes I'm sure,"

"Are you and I ok?"

"Yes we are and about my explanation," He paused for a little while "How can I say this..."

He didn't say it. He didn't say anything. He just leaned in and kissed me.

Now it's time for me to be surprised and confused.

"Wait, what was that I thought you had a boyfriend,"

"No, I'm sorry, I never had a boyfriend. I was just confused. I wasn't sure how I felt about you and I needed time to figure it out. I now know that I share the same feelings you do,"

This has never happened to me. He actually likes me. I have no words, I'm completely speechless.

"Hello? Earth to Liam. Are you ok in there?" He laughed

"Wait, so you actually like me?" He nodded.

I didn't say anything else, I kissed him instead. That kiss spoke all words without anything being said. I felt that the kiss went on forever and I never wanted it to end. I felt warm inside. Is this what it's like to be in a relationship? So many thoughts going through my head, but this time it's positive thoughts.

He broke the kiss and just stared into my eyes and smiled. I melted right there in my spot. I felt even more connected to him then I did before.

"I assume we are dating now," he said.

"Yeah," I looked down and smiled, "I guess so,"