Lost Vulnerable Soul

Introduction

Have you tried loving a person whom you trusted and thought that he/she would never hurt you?

Well, almost all of us tried it out already. Our first love. That is one of the most painful things here in this world. We all tried this but then again, It's not just about the first girl we loved or the first guy we cried on. It's about the trust, feelings and sacrifices that hurts the most.

You trusted that person so you invested some feelings and you tend to sacrifice for them but they ended up hurting you.

Isn't it too ironic? Well, it is actually.

I tried to love once, that is actually my family.

I loved them with all of my heart but even though, they are the ones who built me up, they're also the reason of my great breakdown. They gave me hope, love, faith, courage and grit to live. I never knew that they're going to be the reason why I turned out to be like this.

Cold.

Vain.

Melodramatic.

A self-harming Addict.

A liar.

A rebel.

I have reasons. I'm the one to blame, it's my choice. The thing is, it's funny how I trusted them and I've been blinded by a so called "perfect-family".

Everything was fine before.

Before.

But now, everything changed.

Everything.

I can't even remember the last time I smiled. The last time I laughed. The last time I ate dinner with them. The last time I loved them.

It's always my choice but then again, I chose to be like this. Why? Cause I'm not that strong to face these. I'm not that courageous to face this. I'm not used to this.

I'm losing the real me.

Day by day.

I'm losing myself. I just can't find my way back home. Help me. I need myself back. I need the old me.

I may be strong on the outside but I really do need some help right now. Please..

Please help..

Help me tell this..

Help me narrate everything..

Help me say the things about my life ..

Help me ..

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So hello there guys! So this story is all about how important is a family.

This story is kinda or somewhat my Real life struggles and problems so some of them are real life except the characters and some scenarios.

I would basically continue writing this and Class 12-Honesty simultaneously hahahaha. After updating this, I would update the other one.

So leave your thoughts on the comment section or pm me okay?

Xiexie~ Arigatooo -Astradite-chan