I was walking in the halls of our university. Trying to find my friend, Lori. Finally I found her, I ran to the cafeteria where she was.
“Lor- Oh, Ki, you’re here. W-why?” I asked the boy that put his chin on his palm.
“Yeah, is there a problem?” Kihyun chuckled.
“Course not, just was wondering why you’re sitting at our table. There’s no problem though,” I tried avoiding his gaze, but it was following mine.
If you didn't know, which you wouldn't. I have a crush on Kihyun, I know, it's probably weird to have a crush in university and it's probably a childish thing, but I like him. His personality and looks drives me crazy. I'd always imagine scenarios about me and him, doing something cute... and other things, but let's not focus on those things.
"Are you trying to ignore me, Y/Nn?" Ki asked.
"Ugh," I rolled my eyes. "I told you, I hate that name so stop calling me that." I complained.
You're probably wondering how I have the guts or whatever to even talk to him, like the girls usually do in movies. And honestly, I do too. I wish I had the guts to tell him that I like/love him, I'm too afraid. Afraid of what's going to happen if I do. We're not really friends, but I don't want whatever this relationship is to end just because of my feelings for him. Isn't that what every girl or boy thinks about?
"But it's a cute name for a cute girl," He responded.
I got a little flustered, but wasn't going to show it. "Yeah, okay." I looked at a guy's back.
WeEk LaTeR...
Lori kept on bugging me about Kihyun and every time she did, I swerved her questions or starting convo about him. I've been trying to lose my feelings for him, but when ever I lay my eyes on him, there's this gushy feeling in me.
I always wanted a boyfriend, especially now that I'm single and still am in school. School's usually the place you find the one, but "the one for me" I'm scared of ruining of whatever we have.
"C'mon, Y/N. If you don't say anything right now, when will you. If you don't tell him, he'll never know and if he never knows there won't be you two. Do you want that, Y/N?" Lori crossed her arms. 'm "Don't give me that look, Lor," I whined with a frown on my face. "I can't do anything, I'm.. I'm just scared."
"I know you are, Y/N. But I just want you guys together, so you don't come over to me and say how you wish you guys would be a couple and what you imagine. Seriously, sometimes I regret being your roommate because of what you say when you're sleeping." My friend said.
I stared at the lamp on my desk, "Sorry about that."
"It's fine. All I'm asking is for you to tell Kihyun about your crush on him, for me."
"I don't know why you care, but I guess I will. I'm going to regret this, I can just feel it." I told.
"You'll be okay, don't worry." She gave me a thumbs up. ______ I'm in the cafeteria where I asked him to meet up with me. No one was hear, so that was perfect just in case no one would here our conversation. Kihyun was walking into the cafeteria but suddenly started to jog to the table I was sitting at.
"Hey, what did you want to talk about?" He asked as he sat down.
"I just have to tell you something."
"Shoot," Kihyun said.
I started feeling butterflies in my stomach, but I tried to get rid of them. "I like you, Ki. I've liked you for a long time, well at least I'd call it a long time. My friend, Lori kept on telling me to tell you like everyday, so I decided I'd tell you now and not have to worry about it later. I don't really know what else to say to you."
He just sat there looking at me probably trying to find an answer. I think I already know the answer, I looked down at my hands in my lap. "Uh...Sorry, Y/N. I just don't really like you like that. Sorry. I'm just not looking for a relationship."
As soon as those words sank in, I got up and ran away. Tears flowing down my cheeks, I silently cried until I got to the room that I share with Lori. I face planted on my bed still having tears flooding.
I heard Lori sitting up on her bed, "Y/Nn, what's wrong?"
I didn't answer her, after a few seconds she figured out what's wrong with me. "Oh, Y/N. I'm sorry, I-I didn't know he'd do this. I-"
Getting up to look at her with my dried tears, "Of course you didn't know, how would you? It's not your fault anyway, I believed that he'd like me. I'm so stupid, why would HE like me?"
Feeling Lori's hand on my backing, caressing me. "He's a jerk if he doesn't like you. You're smart, beautiful, and have an amazing personality. If he couldn't see that, then HE'S the one that's stupid. Don't go after him anymore."
I gave her a small smile, "Thanks, Lori. I can always count on you for cheering me up. I'm sure I'll get over him soon."
She smiled at me too, "You will." She looked over at the window we had in our room. "Maybe we should go to sleep, it's pretty dark outside and you know the hall monitors come out before it's 10:00." Lori walked over to her bed and got under the covers, I'm guessing she already brushed her teeth.
I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth. After that I got my bed and turned off my lamp, "Goodnight, Lor."
"Goodnight." _______________
What'd you guys think about that? It took me long to write this, because I've been trying to get over my crush but that's not happening. My friends asked him out for me on Wednesday, but he said he's not ready. I went home feeling sad, but I'm not giving up. Esp cuz my ex friend likes him now, and since I hate that b*tch I'm going to try even harder to get him lol. But I'm going to confess to him before it's spring break for us. Anyways, hope you liked it! Bye😊💙
