Falling

Dreams Too Big

I'll take you back
To a time long ago
When I was a little girl
You'd never know

A girl with a smile
So happy
You wouldn't think
She'd become me

In her eyes you could see
Her love for the world
How content she was
For just a little girl

You could hear it in her words
The happiness to live
Not wanting to take
But always to give

At night she dreams
Of a beautiful place
Living like a princess
In a dress of white lace

As Prince Charming
Arrives on a white horse
A world in the future
Without any remorse

Sometimes I feel guilty
For shattering my own dreams
Giving up on my life
Tearing it apart at the seams

But I should have known
Not to be so naïve
And make up those pointless dreams
They told me not to believe

I ended up hurting
No one but me
And what they said
The truth now I see

The fault for this suffering
Is no one's but mine
In the failure of my dreams
I stay confined

Now my life
Is all torn apart
Nothing left of
That little girl's big heart

Now completely in darkness
Is my wretched soul
Twisted and defiled
New yet already old

Maybe sometimes
A little light slips in
Quickly engulfed by the darkness
From deep within

So now and forever
Dark is my being
Forever asleep
Yet still awake and seeing

In my cage of failure
Safe and sound
Though still surrounded
By darkness all around

Wishing I was just like
The girl back then
Oh how much I would give
To see life through her eyes again