Idris Institute

Chapter 43

I know we need to talk. But right now, I want to think everything through. Can you just give me some time? Please.

Thanks. I will talk to you later.

I then headed to hide away. I just need some time alone. I need to think. When I find a quiet place, I hide there. I need to think. When I find a quiet place, I hide there. I brought out my sketch book that I had on me.

It has been a while since that day. I haven't talked to Jace yet. But I know I need to talk to him. I want to know what he wants to know what he wants to talk about. But I know he probably want to talk about. But I know he probably want to talk about the cup. I must find him to get this over with.

Today we had no school. So, Jace could be anywhere. But I figured I could find him. I went to the fitness room. He has been hanging around there more since the last time we talked really. I was right. Here he was. I went over to him and said,

"Hey."

I don't think he saw me coming because he was surprised to see me standing there. Stopped what he was doing and gave me a hug.

"Hey." He said.

"Do you want to take a walk?" I asked him.

"Yeah." He answered. He grabbed his shirt and put it back on.

We then left the fitness room and went for a walk. We walked in silence for a bit. It was weird. This isn't what I wanted to happen.

"Okay Jace. We really need to get this topic over and done with." I said to him.

"I know." He told me.

"I know you are with Alec and think I should give the cup to the Clave. But here is the thing. I don't trust them." I told him truthfully.

"Clary, I know you don't trust them. I don't trust them either. But it's the right thing to do. It is where it belongs." Jace told me.

"I don't know Jace. They lost it once and almost ended up in his hands. I can't have afforded that to happen again." I told him.

"Clary, what can you do to protect it? The Clave can protect it better." He said.

"I think I can protect better then they can. I have for this long. Any ways I am the only one that can truly get to it." I told him. This isn't going how I want it to go. I feel like it might ruin our relationship.

"How? How is that possible?" He asked me.

"You are not the only one is special here." I told him.

He looked at me confused. Then it hit him. He knows what I was talking about. He then said,

"Okay. If you can prove to me that it is safer in your hands. Then I will believe you and trust your word." He told me.

I know I didn't want this to ruin us. Trust me it didn't. He did. What he just said just ruined what we were. He didn't trust me. Of all people I thought he would. I then said,

"No. If you can't just trust me. Then there is nothing left to talk about."

"What?" He asked me confused.

"Jace, you just said the words I never wanted to hear from you. Actually, the words I thought you never would say. I just can't anymore. I'm sorry." I said.

I then just walked away from him. I didn't have anything more to say to him. Also, I didn't want him to see me cry. I didn't know where I was going. I didn't care. I just want away from him.