Short random stories~

God Damn You're Beautiful

God Damn You're Beautiful~

Her laughter was all I heard. So beautiful and made me smile even though I had no idea what mde her laugh, though I'm just glad to see that beautiful smile from afar. I smiled to my self, wathing her talk to her friends, smiling that beautiful smile with that little twinkle in her Hazel eyes.

I wasn't sure if I was in love wit her and everything she was, or if it was just a crush that leaves after a couple days, but I knew it was something and its been months. I wanted her, I wanted her happiness and everything. Though I knew, deep down, I couldn't. I didn't want to tke that beautiful smile away and throw my horrifying story at her. A story and life I wish would just end sometimes, though somehow it never did.

like always, I sat there outside with my books by my side and cigar in my mouth, watching her talk to her friends and smile. one day, I want to make her smile that smile.She always wore pretty sweaters and shorts, or a dress that fits her beautiful body. she was so perfect, from her curly brown hair to the dirty converse she wore. though she was a good girl and I, on the other hand, am everything she hates. though something about today felt different.. it was strange and I constantly kept thinking, taking a breath and blowing the smoke out of my mouth.

"Are you just gonna sit here and watch her like a stalker like always..or are you actually gonna stop making her feel like you're a serial killer?" Ashely sat next to me, raising a brow with a small smirk, and I rolled my eyes. " She's taken Ash. there's no point." I puffed again, though this time in her face knowing how much she hated it. "don't be a jerk!" she blew as much smoke out of her face as much as she could while i just laughed at my little step-sister's reaction. She looked at me anoyed then turned to look at her, giving her a funny look."lets play truth or dare!" Ashely said excitedly, looking at me. 

I gave the 14 year old girl a grin then threw my cigar on the floor, stepping on it and shaking my head. "No" I mumbled, watching as her boyfriend aproached her, kissing her cheek like he always does while I just sat there, gulping down and biting the inside of my cheek. Ashely sighed and looked over at me as I watched her from the corner of my eye. "you do know nothing is stopping you right?" Ash spoke softly, tapping her fingers on the wood of the bench.I looked down at my hands, the scars on them from work yesterday, brushing my thumb over them. "I dont wanna erase tht smile from her face. She's happy..and all I will do is make her miserable. I can't just tell her about me and not expect her to hate me more than she already does..or to love me one bit more." I said to her, wondering how stupid I probably sounded. "all that you are saying are 'What ifs'. you never know, she might just love you and if she doesn't then that doesn't mean there isn't someone there to love or fall in love with you. and you cant keep using that as an excuse. you are what you are, you got your flaws and you got your goods, like everyone else. And there is a chance if you take it" she leaned forward and kissed my cheek, wrapping her arms around my arm and hugging it. I was frozen for a moment at what she said to me, raising and dropping my brows, looking up and meeting Siera's beautiful eyes for the slightest second before she looked away. 

Little did I notice, I was smiling and given advice by my younger sister. I looked down at her and brushed her locks of blonde hair, leaning down and kissing her head." I'm getting you fro-yo for this. thank you cutie" I gave her a smile and her face lit up with excitement, laughing at my sudden change of mood and desion. maybe, just maybe, I will try to get her to notice me. maybe just one day I will talk to her and make her smile. It was oblivion that was killing me and I did not know what to expect. Siera threw her bag on her back and walked to her car, and thats when I, being the fool that I was, ran right in front of her. my sister looked away and  held back her laughs while Siera slightly jumped back, dropping down the books that i cought before they fell to the ground from her hands. i held them and handed them back nervously. that was very stupid of me wasn't it? god damn it. it was like she was the only one I could not talk to, from what I have noticed considering the many girls I've been with. she was just different. "sorry" i chuckled and she looked at me with that smile, taking her books and giggling nodding her head that it was okay.

" I'm Siera" she smiled sweetly, and there it was that twinkle in her eyes. It was happening..it was happening.

" Natilie" I said, confidently.

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