Thomas' Sister (Newt X Reader) [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 4

A/N
In a part of this chapter their will be a part about suicidal thoughts. If you are going through anything like this, please talk to someone. I know what it is like so please share with someone close to you. It helps. Trust me.
This a disclaimer for anyone who doesn't like the thought of the subject.

Newt's P.O.V

Y/N led me into the deadheads and sat down right in front of a tree and leant against it. She patted next to her for me to join her, to which I did. I gazed into her
(Y/E/C) eyes. I could see pain behind them but I didn't know why. I want to know why. But I believe she caught me staring when she said, " Hey...I'm not a hypnotist. So why are you looking at me so blankly?" She smiled slightly. I laughed a little in embarrassment. "Just...um...I-" She interrupted me. "No need to explain Newt. I didn't mean to make you embarrassed." How the heck did she know that. So, I simply denied her by saying."I'm not embarrassed what are you talking about?" She laughed a little. I love it when she laughs, when she laughs I want to laugh with her. "Really? Cause You're blushing...a lot." I sat in silence. I didn't respond. She was right. I was embarrassed. I can't deny that. When I'm around her I feel like my mind doesn't function properly and I get huge knots in my stomach so I do get a little embarrassed in front of her from time to time...

"So...where do I begin?" She sighed heavily. "Remember, I won't judge you or see you in anyway different to the Y/N I know..." she smiled slightly and gave me a slight nod in return."Well...it was last week and the nightmares began. The nightmares were of me getting hurt. Sometimes I would see them from a different point of view. But a lot of the time it was from my point of view. It was some form of head injury...that's why I have this." She pulled aside the hair that rested on her face and always had, to reveal a scar. I felt awful. The tears were running down her face and tears were welling in my eyes. "Why didn't you tell me?..." I asked. I wasn't hurt that she hadn't told me. It just hurt me to see her in such a state. "I didn't want to change what you thought of me...I didn't want you to ask what had happened. It would hurt me to tell you I didn't know..." she was sobbing now... I pulled her into an embrace. I had started crying too now. "I didn't tell Thomas this but...my thought track changed...I had horrible thoughts. I hated myself. I would question everything. I would even question...why I am here...why I'm living. Why people here even bother putting up with me."

She pulled away from the embrace and started pacing around breathing heavily and ranting and saying things so fast that I couldn't understand her. "Please try and calm down love..." I tried to calm her down. But it didn't work. She was still saying things to fast for anyone to understand. She stopped talking after a minute and just started hyperventilating as she paced back and forth.
"Y/N, please calm down. Everything is going to be okay." She looked at me blankly for a second. Even in the darkness of the forest I could tell she was pale from the moonlight shining through the deadheads. It only took me a second to realise. I ran toward her just as she collapsed. She passed out as I caught her. I started to panic myself but then I realised I would have to stay calm. For Y/N. I took her into my arms and went as fast as I could with this shuck limp. As I left the deadheads I shouted out-

Thomas' P.O.V

"Help!" I heard Newt yelling. I stopped my conversation with Minho and ran toward where the shouting was coming from. I continued to run until I saw him. He was carrying Y/N. Why? What happened? Why is she so pale? "Newt? What's going on with her? Is she asleep or-" He cut me off by saying. "She had a panic attack and passed out...we need med-jacks now." With that I ran toward the others as Newt laid my sister down on the ground and sat beside her. "MED-JACKS! WE NEED MED-JACKS OVER HERE!" I yelled. Everyone looked over to me and then looked into the distance to see Y/N laying on the ground unconscious. Clint and Jeff got up and ran over to Newt and past me. I ran over with them to her. "What happened?" Clint asked. "She had a panic attack. A severe one..." Newt said tears welling in his eyes as Clint and Jeff picked her up "We can't have anyone see her yet until we know all her vitals are clear.." With that they left with Y/N. Newt just looked to the ground. I knew it was best for us not to follow. I think it's best if I stayed with Newt and until she was okay to go and see.

I felt bad...I can tell he loves her. I can tell she loves him. I just don't know how they haven't said it to each other yet. "Newt?" He looked over to me "What Tommy?" He asked bluntly. "You love her don't you?" He looked up and nodded slightly..."Yeah...I do..." he said quietly. "Well, please, when she wakes up treat her right...don't hurt her please...be with her." Newt went to go and say something but I cut him off. "She loves you Newt...okay. Now we will wait until they give us the all clear to see her..." he nodded with a slight smile on his face. With that we made our way to the Homestead and waited outside the room that Y/N was in. We sat in silence until Jeff came out of the room. "Her vitals are all clear...you can go in and wait with her now..." We both got up and headed in but Jeff then said. "Talk to her. She will still be able to hear everything you say..."

We gave him a slight nod and entered. I sat next to her on one side and Newt sat on the other. I took hold of her hand and said. "You will be okay Y/N/N. Just remember everyone is here for you. You will never be alone." Newt then said to her..."Y/N, love...I wish this was under better circumstances but...I love you." With that I felt her grasp at my hand and by the looks of it so did Newt. We glanced down upon her face and then her eyes fluttered open...

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A/N

HEYYYYY! Sorry I haven't uploaded a chapter in a while. A lot of stuff has been going on. It feels good to write another chapter again. I have missed this so much. So now I am back and uploading a chapter EVERYDAY! So I hope you guys decide to continue with my story and I will speak to you guys tomorrow. BYEEEEEEE!!!