Broken [A The 100 Story]

Part 1 - A loosing victory

[This story will start of in space, like at the end of season 5, but will finish on the ground. This part includes Raven, Echo, & Bellamy, in this order. I haven't forgotten the others btw]

Alone, Raven sat silently in her room. The silence was a way for Raven to escape from all the pressure everyone put on her, the amount everyone relied on her, but silence also allowed her to think of the grief. The losses. With every victory they had, while fighting on ground, or surviving in space, can plenty of gruesome deaths. Deaths that haunted her. How did she become so lucky to be one of the surviving few.
A light gentle knock on Raven's door, came from outside, she got up, and opened it, to find Echo stood smiling. Her and Echo had become really close while trapped in space. Raven then smiled back, but behind the smile, was sadness. Raven had to portray a happy imagine. People relied on her, knowing that raven had no idea on how to get back to the ground, would just cause unneeded panic. Even to those close to her, she felt as if she couldn't tell the truth. But within moments of Echo entering the room, Bellamy came in, stealing Echo. Raven had always been suspicious of something going on between them, but never found it her place to say anything. And now once again, Raven was sat there, alone.
Even with the isolation between the others, there was always one person, who could guarantee to put a smile on Raven's face. John Murphy. Yep. But he was most certainly off bounds. Raven only discovered her feelings for Murphy a few months ago, during an intimate game of truth or dare, where Bellamy dares Murphy to kiss her. To him, it was only a dare, just a stupid kiss. But for her, it was something more, something magical, not like with Finn, or Kyle. Something with meaning, which was rather strange, as for him, it had no meaning. But by Raven knowing her true feelings for John, she felt as if she couldn't be the same around him, for Emori. Questions have forever been in Ravens head, like 'Would he choose me over her?' 'Would anything happen if I told him how i feel'. Even if Raven was true with her feelings, she'd only be hurting others. That's the problem, Raven always put herself before others.
A tear ran down Ravens cheek, before more started falling down, like a waterfall.
"Aghhh" she screamed to herself, throwing her journal across the room, in frustration. With the pressure of everyone's lives in her hands, and her having to lie, the stress got to her sometimes, but she'd never tell anyone. Not Echo, not Bellamy and certainly not Murphy.
But one month later, things were about to change. Raven was in one of her weekly breakdowns, when in walks Bellamy, someone who Raven considers a brotherly figure. But she knew that he'd demand to know the truth... to be continued.