The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I've broken all my promises to you
I've broken all my promises to you.
Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
A phrasing that's a single tear,
Is harder than I ever feared
And you were left feeling so alone.
Because these days aren't easy
Like they have been once before
These days aren't easy anymore.
Why do you do this to me?
Why do you do this so easily?
You make it hard to smile because
You make it hard to breathe
Why do you do this to me?
To me, to me, to me.
I should have known this wasn't real
And fought it off and fought to feel
What matters most? Everything
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home
I will bring you home.
6/15/2014 11:25pm
So. Life has actually getting slowly worse. That makes no sense but I'm in no mood to care. I am half drunk, and high from pain killers. I've done this a ton, so I'll probably make it out alive. I hope I don't, though. We have returned home today, mainly because the weather. It's supposed to get really bad tomorrow. Wayde, the weather freak, heard about a possible second tornado. There was a tornado once, like last week. Sydney told me that it landed literally a block from her house. Near the mall, which is at least a block away. I'm going to make this chapter a quicky, mainly because I'm tired as fuck. Oh and I also came across a fake of me on this site. I'm not very happy with that. I'm probably going to end up fucking killing myself tonight.
So I'll leave you guys. I'll just sit here for a couple ours, probably resulting into be hurting myself. I've been clean from self-harm for two weeks, and I'm ready to go back to zero.
See ya.
