Fully Alive (Chris Motionless Fanfic)

Confession

  "It's not happening." I told Chris, walking out of the room. He followed me. "Oh come on, it's only for one night!" He begged. I turned around. "Christopher Cerulli I am not wearing a thong on my wedding day."

  Never in my life had I worn a thong and I was definitely not going to start now. Tomorrow was the wedding, and I had never been so excited. It was going to be a fairly small wedding: Chris's family, the guys and their girlfriends, and Jacob and Valletta.

  Jacob, who would be the ring bearer, was going to be wearing an adorable tux that Balz had helped find for him. Valletta, who would be the flower girl, would be wearing a black dress with a headband of fake red roses.

  "It's just for the one night, I just really wanna see you wear a thong." Chris pleaded. "Not in a million years." I said firmly. Jacob walked in then, holding Valletta, and Valletta asked, "Mommy, what's a thong?"

  Chris fell over with laughter as I slapped my forehead. Even Jacob was laughing. "You'll find out when you're older." I groaned. She begged me to tell her now, causing Jacob and Chris to howl with laughter. Seriously, they sounded like a couple of hyenas.

  "I will beat you both!" I threatened the boys, half serious, half laughing. Jacob finally regained control of himself; Chris, however, was still giggling away. "'What's a thong?' Oh my God!" He squeaked.

  I pretended to kick him in the ribs as I took Valletta from Jacob. "You are such a child sometimes, Daddy Long Legs!" I teased him. Jacob argued that he was Daddy Motionless, since the guys occasionally called him that.

  "Daddy Long Legs!" Valletta exclaimed, and we all laughed at her. We heard the doorbell ring, and Jacob and Chris raced to answer the door, while I walked with Valletta, who was trying to squirm out of my arms. I gave in and let her down, and she ran to the door.

  When I got to the door I saw Ricky, Angelo, and Balz. Ricky was here for the kids, and would watch them till the wedding tomorrow.

  Angelo was kidnapping Chris. Balz was staying here with me, since he and I had become best friends after what happened when I got pregnant and Chris tried to kill himself.

  "Uncle Ricky, Uncle Ricky!!!" Valletta squealed, jumping up on him. He laughed. "What's up shortie?" He asked. "Spin me, spin me!" she giggled. He picked her up and spun her around the living room, and she screamed with delight.

  After a bit of talking, Chris, the kids, Angelo, and Ricky left, so I was alone with Balz. We decided to sit on the couch and watch some movies, since I had everything all prepped for tomorrow.

  We eventually settled on watching 1408, a favorite of mine. We were laughing at how silly some of the people could be, and I rested my head on his shoulder. He wrapped an arm around me, and I smiled.

  It was nice to have my best friend spend the night with me before my wedding day. "It's an evil fucking room." Balz said along with the movie, and I laughed. I loved all the guys, but Balz was the only one beside Chris that always had a way of making me laugh.

  We laughed again as the manager told the main character he wasn't going anywhere near the room. Balz looked over at me and smiled. "Hey, Alice?" he said. "Yeah?" Before I had time to react or process, Balz kissed me.

  I pushed Balz away from me the second I realized what was happening! "Get the fuck off me!" I yelled at him, sending him to the floor. "Alice wait, listen!" He jumped up and tried to hold me, but I refused.

  "The fuck, Balz?! What the actual fuck?! I'm getting MARRIED tomorrow, to your fucking BEST FRIEND!!! What the Hell are you thinking?!" I screamed at him.

  "Alice listen to me! I love you, okay? I love you so much, and I want you to be mine! I could make you so much happier than he could, and I know you care about me too!" Balz pleaded with me desperately.

  I was in shock. "No, Balz, you're wrong! I see you as my fucking brother! At least, I did till you fucking kissed me! I just... Go away, Balz." I told him. "Alice, please, I-"

  I clamped a hand over his mouth, and pointed at the door with the other. "Go. Just go away. And if you show tomorrow, don't be surprised if you get punched, by me, or the others." I said firmly.

  Balz started to cry. "Alice, please, I love you, just give me a chance..." He begged. I shook my head. "Get out." He finally realized I wasn't going to listen, and left, leaving me alone, where I finally broke down, collapsing on the floor, sobbing.