Fully Alive (Chris Motionless Fanfic)

Confession: Deleted Scene

~Author's Note: (Spoilers!) Okay so writing Confession I had a different idea in mind of how exactly it was going to go, I didn't originally plan for Balz to kiss Alice, so here is how it was originally written. This is dedicated to rhiannonnannon~

  When I got to the door, I saw Angelo, Ricky, and Balz. Angelo was here to kidnap Chris, Balz was here for the kids, and Ricky was going to stay the night with me.

  I was close with all of the guys since they were the only people I talked to, but I felt the closest to Ricky, with the exception of Chris, obviously. He was my best friend, I was closer to him than Lexi and I had ever been.

  We all talked for a bit, till eventually they all left, and Ricky and I were left alone. "Whatcha wanna do?" Ricky asked me. I looked at him and shrugged. "Fuck if I know. Movies?"

  He looked confused. "Like go out and see one, or watch one here?" He asked me. I laughed and said we should watch one here, I wanted to stay home and relax tonight.

We pawed through all our DVDs and eventually settled on Sinister. I went into the kitchen and made popcorn while he got the movie all cued up and ready to play. "Want any soda or anything?" I called. "Got Coke?" "Yeah!" I grabbed a Coke for him and I each, the bowl of popcorn, and went into the living room.

  Ricky was already sitting on the couch, remote in hand, looking at me impatiently. "Come oooooooon!" He urged me. "Oh shut up bitch, I will take back this fuckin Coke!" I said, handing him the soda.

  He clutched it to his chest as he gaped at me in horror. "You wouldn't!" He was so goofy sometimes. I loved that about him. "Oh try me!" I threatened. "Is that permission, or a dare?" He asked, seeming almost serious.

  I laughed at him. "What do you think?" I said teasingly. Without missing a beat, Ricky set his soda on the table, pulled me closer, and kissed me.

  I was surprised for a moment, unsure of how to react, but soon enough, our lips were moving in perfect synchronization, his tongue inviting mine to dance. Our kiss grew more intense as he laid down, pulling me on top of him.

  At that point, I realized what I was doing. I broke away from him and sat up quickly. "What's the matter?" Ricky asked. "Chris. I can't do this. Not to him, not with you. It's wrong. This should never have happened." I said worriedly. I had just completely and utterly betrayed Chris.

  "How wrong is it if he never finds out?" Ricky asked, disappointed. I sighed. "Just as bad. Maybe worse." I held my head in my hands. "What have I done..." I groaned.

  Ricky pulled me closer and held me while I cried. I couldn't blame him entirely, it was just as much my fault now. I eventually calmed down, and Ricky kissed my forehead. "Are you gonna tell him?" Ricky asked me.

  I thought for a moment before answering. I shook my head no. "It would kill him. I can't do it." I answered. "Good." Ricky lifted my chin to meet his gaze and kissed me again, and I once again kissed back.

  It was wrong, and the entire time my head was screaming at me to pull away, but my body craved more of him, to feel his skin on mine. I pulled his clothes off quickly in a desperate attempt to be closer to him, and he did the same.

  When we were done, we laid there on the couch snuggled together. "No one knows." I whispered to him. He nodded in agreement, then repeated what I said. "No one knows."