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- pain -

"How could they say that they don't even solid evidence." Yuri yelled out while I stared at my phone screen reading more comments as the flooded into my comment section.

"I don't even know Yuri I really don't. All of these are rumors but most are taking them as facts. I can still see people who are defending me but they're at a number I can count with my fingers." I sighed.

At this point I honestly have no idea what to do. 

"Should I post something to explain myself?" I looked to Yuri.

As much as I know this is not my fault I have always been the type of person who would say sorry whether I was to blame or not and I have made that attitude into a habit. 

"No it's not even your fault. Give it some time it'll subside." She sighed and went in and gave me a hug. "It'll be alright. You're not a cheater and the truth will find it's way one way or another."

I huffed. 

Thoughts flooded my mind.

Why would anyone make such false accusations when they barely even know anything? Who started all of this? How could it have gotten so out of hand?

I thought of so much question but one question was hidden behind them all.

What's Jimin doing about it?

"It's fine Si Ah you're alright." Yuri gave me a sweet smile as she caressed my hair. "You need to rest we have class tomorrow."

She stood up and turned the lights off as I laid on my side facing the wall.

I tried to sleep but I felt so restless.

I didn't seem to make any progress into organizing me thoughts or at least keeping them quiet.

Tears started forming in the corners of my eyes.

I kept so much pain in when I was with Yuri and Taehyung but right now as i lay in bed thinking about so much things all I could do is shed tears.

I never thought breaking up with someone would hurt. I was always the type of person who thought that break ups aren't emotionally draining or anything but now I realized it didn't just affect me emotionally but also physically. I feel so weak. Jimin meant so much to me and he still does. I know that it was maybe just a few months give or take but those few months made me so happy. Jimin made me feel a certain way I never had. Since the time I met him at my friends wedding all I could think about was him. I became a gigantic fan after I knew who he was. I waited for him even when I knew that the chances of seeing him again were really slim. I felt so small in the gigantic world he lived in. I mean what made me special? That's what I always thought as I waited for him. When he finally came back into my life I felt really special. I thanked the Lord everyday knowing I had someone like Jimin with me. Now... I feel more empty than I've ever been.

Tears started rolling in as I reminisced all the memories we've had. 

They say that it isn't love unless it hurts well then now I know it is.

But is he in pain too? Or is it just me?

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Yeyyyyyyy an update. This poor girl istg. Guys im so sorryyyyy for all my inconsistency. Im so confused whether i should make her a highschooler or a collage student idkkkkkkkkkk help me huhuhuhu. ANYWAY poorrrr Si Ah. I don't think iv'e been in love before so i honestly have no idea when it comes to love. Well maybe I have and maybe i am ahahhahahahaahhaahahhaahhah nahhh hahahhaha im 14 im still young lol. anyway love you guyssssssssssssss