The Secret We Share

Kylie

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Alexis: Kylie, I am so sorry. You might not forgive me for this, but I am getting on a plane to Europe in 30 mins and I won't be back until school starts. I wanted to say goodbye. I intended to tell you at the beach, but the words wouldn't come out. And then, we kissed and I just couldn't tell you. I really didn't want you to have to find out this way, and I am truly sorry. I probably won't be able to text much while I am in Europe but there is something you need to know about me. However, I have to tell you this in person. I promise when I get back I will tell you what I need to tell you but for now I just hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I love you Ky, I always will, I'll miss you this summer.
-XOXO Alexis

*****

I read the text and my stomach dropped. My heart thudded in my chest.

She was gone.

I couldn't believe it. She hadn't said goodbye, she hadn't even mentioned the mere possibility of a trip to Europe. I didn't even know what to think. That is, until my brain conjured up the image of me kissing Alexis on the beach. Ugh, even though I'm mad at her, she still creeps into my thoughts.

But I still didn't understand it. Why had she left without even saying goodbye to me? We had been there for each other through thick and thin, didn't that count for something?

I opened my phone again and typed in Jordan's number, hands shaking. I had to find a distraction, something to keep me from thinking about Alexis, about the fact that she was gone. But, before the phone had even rung twice I hung up.

In my shocked state, I'd nearly forgotten the events that had happened only a couple hours ago. Jordan was definitely still drunk, sleeping off his cheap vodka until he woke up with the consequences.

I sighed. I guess the only thing I could do now was try to fall asleep, though I knew it wouldn't be easy, as staying awake was doing me no good.

With tired eyes, I plugged in my phone and placed it on my nightstand. Luckily, I remembered at the last minute to turn off my alarm clock. The one thing I could hold onto was the fact that, since it was officially summer, I could sleep in as late as I wanted. Although, if I thought about summer any more than that, I began to feel lonely already in knowing that Alexis would be absent from it.

I shut my eyes tightly, as if it could help me erase all the events that had happened tonight, and curled into a ball. Breathing deeply, I fell into a restless sleep.

*****

She laughed, her face flashing with the radiance of her smile. Her tanned arms reach out to the blue sky above, and her golden hair gleamed and blew in the wind.

"Kylie come on! It's summer vacation!" She said, slinging her arm around my shoulder.

"I know, I'm so happy," I said grinning softly, "let's go to the beach and officially start this summer off right."

Her smile flashed yet again as she grabbed my hand, her soft finger intertwining with mine. She pulled me towards the golden sand, though she stopped running just as our toes reached the edge of the water.

Suddenly, she turned to me, her expression unreadable.

She drew me close, leaning in as if to kiss me. Her lips came closer, slowly, her eyes fluttered shut and I instinctively leaned-

*****

I jolted awake, disoriented.

Had I really just dreamed that? I shook my head trying to make sense of it all.