Everyday I fall in Love Again.

Why?

I asked Ryan to call Niall to ask him where he was going, Ryan told me he was going away to get away from here and from me so he coudln't hurt me anymore. Niall also said that he might go to persue his music career he always wanted.

I can't help but think he left mostly because of me. Ryan asked where Niall was, he was still at his house but he would be leaving for the airport soon. So I decided to go to the airport to see Niall before he boarded his plane. Not to be all romantic I just asked Ryan to drop me off and give me some money, who knows maybe I will go with Niall.

"Don't make the wrong choice, love." Ryan told me as I was getting out of the car.

"I will try not to." I told him trying not to smile at him.

As I walked away I started to get butterflies in my belly, seeing all these people look at me like I was a weirdo. I guess I just have to ignore it for right now. I sat down at one of the chairs by a random restruant, I ordered a hot chocolate just so I wouldn't get kicked out for sitting there.

Next thing I know I hear the speakers go off saying that the plane for England would be lifting off in about 30 minutes. Where was Niall?! If he wasn't coming I would be so dissapointed.

After a few minutes I hear a familiar accent coming up behind me saying, "We need to catch that plane out of Ireland!" It was Niall telling his mom running after him.

I started to stand up and try to go after him, but he dropped his ticket so he had to stop from his running and turn back. After he turned around he spotted me right away. I think he was shocked at first just like I was, but I think I was more nervous than anything.

I started walking up to him, "Hi." Was all I could get out of my mouth.

"I thought I would never see you again." He said starting bend down to get his ticket.

I paused, "Well you won't if you get on that plane and forget about me right away." I said trying to make him feel bad for what he did.

"Listen, Lily I'm sorry for what I put you through and what made it worse was it was the day you came home from the hospital. I don't think I could ever forgive myself. But that girl you saw was my ex girlfriend, she wouldn't take no for an answer. Trust me she was long ago in my life, I asked her out like the first week you were in the hospital. I needed to try to get over you." He told me, I was shocked. Why would he put me through this? I don't think I desrved it.

"Why?" I asked him, "Did you have to really have to do that to me?"

"Everytime I think about what I did I regret my actions. I know you will never forgive me but I have to ask...would you ever want to come with me to England?" He asked me like I would forgive him right away.

"Niall, I-I can't. You broke my heart, you are leaving me that's breaking your promise. I can't risk getting hurt again. I just came to hear the truth and tell you, I love you and goodbye." I started to cry as I was saying these words. After this heartbreaking time I started to walk away from him. I needed to leave, not see Niall again and not getting hurt.

"Lil-ly no ple-ease do-on't do th-his." Niall said crying and grabbed my hand as I was walking away.

He turned me around making me fall in love with his beautiful blue eyes again. This isn't fair! Why does he have to be so good looking? After what I thought was over between us he kissed me. It was one of the most passionate kisses I have ever gotten. Or at least from what I remember.

"I love you." Niall whispered in my ear and dropped my hand starting to walk away.

All I could do was stare at him walking away, my heart was completely broken. I would never love again.