dear faith,
if you're reading this then.. i'm sorry.
always remember me. i'll always be there for you, i may be gone but i'll be there, watching over you, looking out for you. i love you lil sis with all my heart.
please.. stay safe for me. don't give up on yourself. stay strong, i know you can be. faith you're one of the strongest most caring people i know, and i'm proud to call you my little sister. right now.. you're 11 years old.. and god i already know that you're gonna grow up to be strong, independent and succeed in life. you're pretty dang smart for an 11 year old i must say.. and if you don't believe me when i say you're strong, you better.
yeah you're quiet.. shy.. apparently get pushed around a lot at school by the older kids but hey? i know what went on at home and i know how strong you really are. you've been put through so much- uh well let's hope you're older when you read this- so much shit at home by our dad, yet you've pulled through it. you stayed strong and kept yourself together. you're a real fighter you know..
i want you to know that anxiety- yeah i know it sucks, but we all get it sometimes.. you more than some due to um the circumstances.. but faith, you'll be okay, don't be scared. i'm with you, im always with you. i will forever be by your side even if you can't see me. i'm in your heart and hopefully forever in your memories.
i don't know how old you are now, sat here reading this. if it's only one letter, this one you're reading right now, you'll hopefully be at least around 15/16.. if it were any older then this won't be the only letter i've wrote for you. i'm aiming to write at least one every 2/3 years i live.. depending on if i get the chance that is.
i'm sorry for leaving you. i'm so so sorry. i wanted to try and turn my life around, try something new.. make a better life for both me and you. i'm doing this for us both. we didn't deserve anything HE put us through, you mostly. it sucks that he took it out on you the most, and i'm sorry for not being able to do much help.
i tried, you know i did. i always tried to make him take it out on me.. but then he's just lock me away in my room and i'd be stuck there.. waiting.. listening.. scared of what was going on. i tried many times breaking down the door but let's face it.. i was a right weak lad wasn't i..
i'm going to change that. and that's why i left. you'll be with grandma, and that's the good thing. dads away in the marines over in america i think.. i'm not too sure, the officers or generals here wouldn't tell me much about any of that.
but anyways..
i love you lil sis.. don't be sad.. don't be scared. i'm always with you, and don't you ever forget that. don't forget that i love you either.. don't forget me..
stay safe kiddo
- Maxy :) x
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Fanfiction"i was once lost.. but now, thanks to faith.. i had found my old self.. and i was forever grateful. for.. i'd found myself in her." [ Sequel to Lost ;; Rye Beaumont ]
