February 16th, 2018
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I pour my heart out on a page
It's the only place it feels safe
What I'm feeling is dangerous
And I'm very afraid
My heart is aching
In anticipation of what's to come
You don't love me
I know that's true
But what scares me most
Is that
I might love you
But I can't
And I won't
And you can't
And you don't
But part of me wishes you did
And I know that you care
And I know that you like me
And I know that you're waiting, too
For me to say goodbye to you
I feel my heart ache in my chest
It's broken and breaking
I don't try wondering what's next
I know you don't love me
There's no way you do
You say I'm so good
But I don't know if that's true
But, I know that you're good to me
Call me sweetheart and baby
All that shit that I like
Is all the shit that you do
And it's the chocolate you buy me
And that donut you got me
That make me think that I might love you
And why, when my friend asked me
It blew my shit
It's terrifying to me
That I'm feeling this way
It's why I feel like crying
Each and every day
Because my whole heart is into you
But you don't know
And I won't tell you
Because you matter too much
And I'm not all that good
But I would be for you
And I know that you care
And that you know
That I'm scared
But you don't know what of
And I wish that you did
And that you'd talk me down
I wish that you'd love me
I wish that you loved me
Because I think that I love you
But I know, for you it's not true
But fuck
For all I know, it is
Because I know that you care
And I know that you like me
And I know that you're waiting, too
For me to say goodbye to you
Yeah, I know that you care
About me a shit-ton
And I know that you like me
A lot
And I know that you're waiting for me to do
What all your other good things do
But, I don't wanna say goodbye to you
YOU ARE READING
amor - a collection of intimate poetry
Poesiathis is just a collection of semi-scandelous poems and other soul baring content i write. you can find some of these and more on my instagram: @/confessions.of.a.crybaby enjoy.
