Gaurdian Angel

Broken Thoughts

I’m sitting here in the middle of a pitch black room.

There is an uneasy silence filling the air I pull my legs to my chest.

I’m alone.

“Dae?” I call out

But all I hear is the echo bouncing back to me.

“Oppa!” I call again. No answer

“Mom?” this time I hear the echo of a child’s voice.

Mom

Mom

Mom

Every echo was like someone was stabbing me in the heart.

“Your alone. Forever alone. You sent your father into jail.”

“You ignored your mother all these years, and lived that happy life with Dae”

“you would have forgotten….” A little girl with bruises all over pops out from a corner of the room.

“Me…to forget me means forgetting who you are Y/N Don’t forget me. Please. DON’T FORGET ME!” The little girl cries as she yells desperately.

‘This child…. She looks familiar’  I thought to myself suddenly a change in scenery brings me back to that dreaded room.

I’m being rocked by mom again “shhh baby it’s okay don’t cry" a loud bang on the door makes me flinch and hide myself in her chest. “Shhh it’s okay” I could her her voice tremble as the loud bangs persisted

BANG

BANG

BANG

The door busts open making a loud cracking noise hitting the wall behind it. Next thing I noticed was me smelling the booze emanate off my father before being ripped from my mother and thrown across the room.

“MOM" I managed to Yelp as I hit the wall.

~~~~~Ji POV~~~~

I wake up suddenly from Y/N twitching in her sleep. She stopped twitching but started shaking like a leaf. This pattern I felt it before.

She’s having that nightmare again..

What do I do?

What can I do?

She breaks out into a sweat. I try to wake her but it doesn’t work right away.  I pick her up so she’s curled up against me and rock her back and forth hoping it would calm her down.

No improvement… why does this dream seem more intense than the last? I gently try to wake her again but she thrashed away from me.

I loose my hold on her and she flies backwards towards the floor.

“Shit" I jump after her

“MOM" I heard her yelp in midair  just as I caught her and turned myself so I hit the floor first.

Thud

The sound of my back hitting the hard floor. Painful but bearable knowing it wasn’t Y/N that hit the floor first.

She opens her eyes and looms at me with those sparkling  eyes. she rubs her eyes and looms at me confused

“Ji why are we on the floor?” she shifts herself off of me I try not to show my pain from the fall.

“someone decided to throw herself from the couch in her sleep"  I gently sit up from the floor.

~~~POV End ~~


“Oh Ji im sorry" I hang my head so I was staring at the floor he grabs my face and wipes away the tears from my nightmare.

“Y/N you should never be sorry for anything. You didn’t do wrong. Just life gave you your lemons sooner than everyone else.” Ji gave me a sweet smile.


“What did you dream about?” He asked even though he knew what my dream was about, Hoping I’d open up to him a little more.

I was about to speak but His phone rang cutting me off. “Yoboseyo?....ne…ne..  aniyo… ne I’ll be there… Wait you want me to bring Y/N? Really? NE! we will be there soon" I look at him confused

“Who was that?” I ask still on the floor

“YG.. he wants me to stop skipping practice and bring you to the company he said you guys have things to discuss.” I not my head.

I haven’t given his offer any thought at all. I want to become an idol…but Ji..  I’ll ask him something to help solidify my resolve.

“Umm Ji?” I grab his hand. He looks at my hand and takes in both of his.

“What is it Jagiya” hearing him say Jagi made me melt and almost forget my question

“Don’t attack me with Jagi Ji” I give a small laugh. “Actually… I wanted to ask. If you become a top idol group you will barely have time to see me right.” He looks to the ground when I ask.


“Y/N This is true.. but I’d work even harder to see you when I can" I knew he would but that wasn’t my deciding question.

“And what if ji I became a member of a group.. and we become famous as well? Wouldn’t that mean we would have less time together?”

“Jagi. I would never tell you to not do anything if it meant not seeing you again in 5 years.

I want you to do what you love and not sacrifice anything for me.

If this means you join a group and your hard work pays off in that group then you become famous. That’s perfectly fine.

My only wish is you become more famous than I do. So I can see you when you are free. Instead of you trying to free time for me.”

His words

How does he know just what to say to me. That silver tounge of his will be the death of me I swear.

“Thank you Ji" I tightly grasp his hand, this way I’m not in his way when he’s practicing. His dream is to become world wide Famous. I hope he reaches his dream… I’ll do it. I’ll join a debut group.

“Ji is Dae going to be there today?” Ji nods his head yes. “Great! I’ll take a shower first and Ji im borrowing sweats from you” I run into the room.

“Ne!” he shouts after me.

As I take a quick shower I start smelling something sweet in the air. What is Ji cooking?

I finish my shower and I dry off and change leaving my hair slightly towel dry I go into the kitchen and there are waffles ready for me on the table “Ji this smells wonderful" I look at the plate.

I feel his arms wrap around me and he nuzzles his face in my neck “Hmmmm you smell good" he teased before he suddenly kissed my cheek and leaving towards the bathroom for his shower.

I sit and eat while he showers. By the time I finish eating he finishes his shower. I put my dishes away and head back into the bathroom to brush my teeth.

“ya Ji you decent?” I casually ask before looking into the bathroom.

“I donno am I?” he snickers as I peek my head in. My eyes go wide he is still in his towel wrapped around his waist. “Can you grab me pants and a shirt” he sings out of the bathroom. I go for his dresser and bring out another pair of his sweats and a shirt that was good for practicing in.

“Here” I hold out his shirt and pants towards him he looks at them “tisk tisk Y/N you forgot something.” I look at him funny as he casually walks out of the bathroom and to his dresser. I couldn’t help but let my eyes follow him. Its not everyday you see a shirtless Ji.

He opens dresser once more and takes out boxers. “you don’t expect me to go commando while im practicing with the boys do you?” my face heats up at the image he just put in my head

“will you hurry up and change I gotta brush my teeth" I whine as he enters the bathroom again closing the door behind him.

The door opens again and I enter grabbing my toothbrush. I brush my teeth quickly and turn to leave but ji stops me and plops me back in front of the mirror again and grabs the brush.

“don’t tell me you were planning to go in and see everyone with this messy hair" he smiles as he brushes my hair

I stare at him as he brushes my hair. Since when did I depend on him like this.

Since when was he my emotional support.

Since when did he replace my brother. I used to depend on Dae a lot when I was growing up. He would do everything for me 

Choose my outfit’s for school.

When he got his car he would drive me to school he even taught me how to drive.

When I think about it most of my memories were with Dae . Mom and dad Kang were in my memories but more like watching over us while Dae drug me around everywhere.

Ji turns me around brushes my hair into side part before he sets the brush down “there now I don’t get bombarded with questions on why your hair was a mess"

He looks at the clock “time to go" he ushers me out the door and to the hall.

“my bag" I try to grab it

“Leave it it’s not like you won’t ever be back here" he winks  as I put my shoes on. We head to the car and he drives to the company.

When we get there “Did we miss something?” I point to the crowd of girls and reporters.

Ji shrugs and we get out of the car. He grabs my hand tightly and we walk towards the building.

“G-dragon can we get a word on Big Bangs  newfound fame?” I heard reporters question and fans screaming “G-dragon who is that that’s holding your hand".

Ji pulls up my hand and kisses it “Her? She’s my Girlfriend" He said and then entered into the company.

We went in abit further only to be stopped by an angry YG. Looking at our hands, I try to let go but he doesn’t let me.

“I’ll say this once YG" his tone was serious “If you want her to become an idol she will be my Girlfriend that is my only condition. AND you still have to talk to Dae about this since she is his sister.” YG crosses his arms in thought.

“Fine... But If you skip one practice/show any event because of her I’ll publicly announce your breakup.”

Wait… YG gave in that easily? Why is he smiling? Does he thing Ji would miss practice or a show because of me? Then he shouldn’t have said his condition .

“Y/N Go get Dae And come to my office" I nod and he leaves towards his office. Hi and I head towards the practice room.

I open the door first and I get pushed back into Ji from Dae attacking me with a big hug.

“Oppa..” I pull him off  “we need to talk to YG. Let go to his office" he looks at me confused but we leave anyway leaving Ji with the others.


“Ya why do we need to talk to YG?” I stop In my tracks

“because I want to join the debut group YG offered from before… Now that I’ve seen father put away. And I’ve seen mother alive and well I want to try something new…. And seeing you guys are now being noticed I don’t want to be a burden and hang around you guys with nothing better to do.” I pout at Dae

“don’t give me that look. You know I give in every time I see that look. Sigh okay fine but the moment it becomes unbearable stop doing it.”

“Dae then what happens if after that unbearable passes? Then we become popular. I don’t want to do this half assed I want to go at this in full force.  Since you brought me here and I learned dancing from everyone I’ve wanted to dance that much more.” Dae smiles

“there is my sister. Welcome back" he hugs me and we head to YG's office.


I knock on the door “come in.” we heard YG reply we both head in and bow.

“Great you are both here" he slides a folder across the table “I assume you already told your brother what was going On?” I nod “okay take a look at that it the contract and the other group members your going to be paired up with"

I pick up the folder and open it. I remember seeing these girls in front of the practice room some days I was there with them.

Daesung takes the folder from my hands and reads it over. “Well I can say her conditions are more reasonable than mine…the girls.. we should meet then before  you decide Y/N" Dae closes the folder and hands it back to me. And gives me a smile.

“Okay. Let’s meet the girls.”