I Wish That Was Me

Chapter 7

~Chapter 7~

*Niall's POV*

"Niall what's with you lately? Why have you been ignoring me?" He asked, his eyes filled with confusion.

"I...don't know.." I trailed off, not really wanting to talk about it. Maybe its for the best? Ive kept it bottled up for quite some time now. I'm just gonna come right out and tell him.

"I like Liam, I have for a very long time...and.." The words poured out of my mouth, like they were just waiting to be said.

"No shit, Sherlock." He said with a rather stern face on..

What?! How did...when? He knows?? 

"What? How did you know?" I said, still confused.

"Niall, it wasn't that difficult. The way you look at him, I'm surprised the boys still haven't found out." My mouth hung open. So...he  knows..was i that obvious? If he knows, that means the other boys probably  know, also.

"oh.." I didn't know what to say. There wasn't anything, really, to say.

"You still didn't answer my question. Why have you been ignoring me? Did you think I would tell him, or somehow stop being your friend if i knew you were gay?"

"I'm not!..well i don't know, I've never thought of any other guys like that..and i don't know why.I guess i just wasn't ready for anybody to know."

I could feel his eyes on me, but i was too much of a coward to look at him. Why didn't i talk to him? We were so close and i just threw all of that away because what? I was scared? He was one of my closest friends, now that i think about it, I'm such an idiot.

"Niall...just know I'm always here. i would've never have turned my back on you."

"I know..."

We spent the next hour just talking. I should've done this a long time ago, it feels so much better letting it all out. In the end, though, we figured there was nothing we could actually do. Liam was in a great relationship with Danielle, and everything was perfect for them. 

"Hey, I just realized the boys aren't here. Where'd they go?" I asked because it was quieter than usual.

"Liam and Danielle went for a walk and.." My eyes looked down on a loose thread on my shirt, of course...

"Harry and Louis I think went to an arcade." He gave me a sympathetic smile, noticing i was playing with a thread on my shirt, that i found instantly entertaining. 

"You know I think you should meet someone, try to get your mind off him" I don't want to. I don't want anybody else except Liam. I know it's probably for the best, but..

"Niall, come on, he's a great guy and i think you'll be seeing him a lot anyways." I raised one brow. 

"Really? And why is that?"

"Because he is our new drummer." New drummer? I guess this wont be such a bad idea, then. 

"Fine.." Oops, that came out more harsh than intented.

"Woo! Okay then, I said he could come by the hotel earlier"  I gave him a weak smile. Im going to try to forget about Liam , i think its for the better.

"By the way his name is Josh. Josh Devine."

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About two hours passed and Zayn and I decided to play some games on the xbox. 

"AHHH! SHOOT HIM!!"

"I AM, I AM! RIGHT THERE, BEHIND YOU!!" My fingers scrambled across the controller. No way was i letting this bastard kill us again! 

*Knock knock*

"NOOO! Seriously! This guy is so cheating!!" Zayn got up and tossed the controller down. I kept playing because I have to avenge ourselves! I heard Zayn open the door and yell a 'Hey!', but i stayed focused on the game. 

"Niall, this is Josh!...Niall!" Crap i just got killed..again by the same guy.

"You made me die!! What!....oh..hey.." I stood up and greeted him properly. He look like a nice guy and he's pretty fit, too..crap..did i really just think that?

"Sorry, its just that the same guy killed us about a million times." I said trying to sound apologetic. 

"No problem! Hey..is that Call of Duty?" His voice sounded...nice.

"Yea! Wanna play?"

"Uh YES! I love this game! Not to brag, I'm also a pro at it ,too." He said with a sly face on. I could get used to this guy. 

"Good because we need you to kick this guy's ass for us." Zayn said, I almost forgot he was right there.

We started playing a couple more rounds. This was nice, and i was warming up to this Josh. Its been about 30 minutes and i already forgot about Liam. I looked over to Zayn and when I caught his attention, I mouthed 'thanks'. 

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"We're home!!"

I tried focusing on the game, we were so close to winning. Josh wasn't kidding when he said he was a pro. But suddenly josh turned around and got up. 

"Hey, Im Josh, your new drummer. We've been nerding out over here" He let out a chuckle. What was he doing?! He was good at the game, but so were the other people, it was a tie.

BOOM, and at that moment we lost the game..I let out a frustrated breath.

"Josh! We were so close!" I said almost feeling depressed.

"Calm down it's just a game" I looked over at him, then at Liam. He was looking at me with a confused face. Shit, last night when we were about to go to sleep...All of a sudden I felt a weight on my shoulder again. I sat back down and slumped into the couch....awkward..

*SOO that was chapter 7!! I'm starting to like this story again WOO! What will happen? Hmmmmmmmmm anyways the next chapter will be up very soon because im already writing it! 

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