Vibrant

Antoinette: Doubt

I laid in bed, thinking about all of the negative possibilities that could result from calling him.  

He could be in bed right now with another woman and act as if he wasn't. He could be at a strip club, throwing thousands away on worthless talent.  Whats worse than that, he probably won't even recognize my soft airy voice, as he deals with hundreds of women on the daily.

I sighed and reached for my phone, charging on my nightstand.  

It was almost midnight, the golden waxing crescent moon was in sight of my bedroom window. The center of Roitset is always pretty lively at night. I used to live right next to a nightclub (which I caught Isaiah sneaking out once he stayed a night) before I decided to move back home, and I hated the random outburst of yells and screams that would occur during the middle of the night. The outskirts of Roitset is the complete opposite. Mostly wealthy people live here, in modern chic condos and houses. 

I am glad that my mum didn't decide to sell our home and head to New York after she divorced my father. I would not have had anywhere to fall back on after the breakup. 

As much as she gripes at me about men,  I know that my mum wants the best for me. She doesn't want to see her daughter go through a crumbling marriage and have kids that would witness their parents splitting up like she did.  

I slowly raised up in my bed, taking my fluffy wool blankets off and went to my phone dialer. 

717...

What if he got a new number? Isaiah's a very busy man and as much of a womanizer he is, I'm sure he has changed it. He could have also blocked my number as well.

131...

I heard the wind outside rustling against my window. I began to panic.

27...

No, I can't do it. What will it make of me to call of him right now? Desperate for his attention and wanting him again. If he answers, I would not know what to do or say. I would sound like an idiot. 

17...

My thumb moved slowly to the call button. I needed self-motivation before I could go through with the motion

"Okay, Antoinette..." I said out loud confidently, "you can do this." 

I took several deep breaths and pressed the call button, hand shaking as I held the phone up to my ear.

"If it rings more then three times, I'm hanging up," I decided, rubbing my left hand over my satin blue nightgown.

Beep...

By now I at least know his number hasn't changed.

Beep...

The chances of him answering right now though would be slim. In fact, I hope he doesn't answer. 

Halfway through, the third ring was interrupted by a familiar husky voice.

"Antoinette?"

I gasped, dropping my phone on the hardwood floor. Damn Antoinette! How clumsy can you be?!

In silence, I stared at the phone, listening closely as the phone was not on speaker.

"Antoinette, baby is that you?"

My right eyebrow twitched.  Baby?  

I picked up my phone carefully, raising it again to my ear.

"I missed you Antoinette, a lot. I wish I could see you again." 

Tears began to roll down my eyes. Ohh, Isaiah... you don't know how much I want to see you again! 

My lips were still glued together. So many emotions were pouring through my mind that I did not know what I would tell him.  Before I could un-paste my lips, Isaiah continued to talk.

"I hired a new model that reminds me of you. Her name is Vibrant and I think I'm falling-"

I hung up the phone before he could finish his sentence. 

I lowered my body on my bed forcefully and put my hands over my face to sob. It has been only a year and Isaiah has already moved on. To think I was about to tell him how much I missed him. Our relationship meant nothing to him! 

My cries grew louder and louder, and soon my mum came to my rescue. She held me in her arms, trying her best to comfort me.

"Honey, it's going to be okay," She kept saying, kissing me on my forehead.  

Why is it so hard for me to forget about the cheater when he can easily forget about me?! I am a 28-year-old woman and I cannot cope with a breakup. Maybe I should consider therapy. 

Whoever this Vibrant is, I hope she is happy for ruining any chances that I have with Isaiah anymore. Her name sounds majestic and she is probably far prettier and younger then I am. 

Good riddance to them both.

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