STIGMA'S BEATEN SOUL

The Contest Begins

Hee Byol's pov

Students who passed the auditions please go to the auditorium and ready your performances we will start after dismissal that's all and have a good day

I stood up and walked all the way to the auditorium students were looking at me and keeps calling me names and says that I will never win but I ignored all of them I noticed V,Jin,Jimin and Jungkook I just sighed and hoped they won't bother me today I went straight to the audio room for my song and I was relieved that it was the judges whose taking care of the songs I gave them the USB that Sanha gave me I thanked them and walked away but bumped to a person I that made me cry yesterday I stood up and offered my hand to him he looked at me but didn't accept my hand he stood up and bumped my shoulder making the other students laugh

'she's so pathetic'
'hah so assuming'
'attention seeker'

I just sighed and went to the most corner of the auditorium I hid behind the curtains of the stage and started practicing
my vocal chords starting with do,re,mi and practicing my lip muscles I closed my eyes and I thought of My past and my present I sighed and looked at my lyrics

'I wish my feelings will be worth a shot' I stood up and walked to our empty cafeteria and grabbed some apple from the tray of fruits and grabbed some banana milk for my dehydrated body and throath i sat on a bench near the trees feeling the cool breeze hit my skin I smelled the air and felt how the world goes normal people will think its weird that a girl like me will think so deeply but I don't care as long as I decide for myself

I started eating my apple and looked at the sky where the sun is still rising I smiled at the scene and closed my eyes

'the morning will come omce again' but still nothing will change I finished my food and started walking to get some fresh air I still remember what he said to me after he went away

                 -flashback-

My little self was crying while hugging the bestfriend that promised her...

'why do you have to go?'

'I don't want to but my mother forced me and I'm sorry' he cried and looked at me

'but I promise when I come back I'll find you and protect you again' he lifted his pinky and I interlocked it with mine

'pinky promise...that you'll be my wife when I comeback' his mother called his name he gave me one last hug and walked away and eversince he promised me I kept hoping that he'll once again be here beside me

9 years later

I was now in highschool and as usual no one tried to befriend me because they said I have a weird personality which is fine after nine years I never lost hope eventhough we never contacted each other eversince he left

I sat at a bench and looked around when I noticed a boy I thought I would never see my tears automatically fell as I saw him he looked at me and just smiled

'does he not remember me?' I stood up and walked infront of him he looked at me I raised my pinky and looked at him

'pinky promise' he just looked at me and he started laughing

'sorry Miss I don't know who you are' he walked pass me while laughing

That's where I snapped

I thought he remembered me
But he promised me
He promised that he'll protect me when he comes back
And he'll marry me what happened I kept on holding on that words but....fuck shit I don't fuckin care anymore

Tears fell from my eyes but wiped them immediately I went to the back of our school and kept punching the wall until my knuckles bleed I screamed and sat down on the ground I kept crying

And that's were I started going the wrong way

            -end of flashback-

I laughed sarcastically and wiped my tears

'he promised to protect me but he's the one who hurts me'

I continously walked and walked until I was at the rooftop I stood at the edge of the wall and looked down I smiled sadly

'will I end this now?' tears filled my eyes as I remember all the things I've been through I remembered the times me and Taemin spent and the times mom and I spent I cried once again I looked down and saw Shikhyung and Misty laughing I smiled and sat down on the edge

'maybe I should hold on a little longer' I sighed and looked at the sunrise

Our contest will start later so its better to practice rather than ending my life now

And after that I kept practicing and practicing until I fell asleep

-ok crying af I don't know why I'm this emotional oh well I guess I just miss my friends jhope you liked it guys

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